Conflict Resolved

Chapter 16: System Overload

{Malina}

"I told you I'm fine Ray. Teddy was just upset. It's,okay..... Man, I don't know what the fuck to say about that though. But I can say that two bitches came after me. Guess they thought I was her!..... Shit, fuck being brave and bold today! I just walked away. It's like a damn war zone at that school with all that drama!..... And I hate that my sister is in it."

I walked into the living room to see Isabelle standing by the window and talking on her phone. As her eyes wondered to the floor, I noticed tears rolling down her cheeks.

"No, I'm not crying." She wiped her face. "Okay fine, I am! I just don't understand what happened to us. We wouldn't ever keep no secrets from each other! We used to be so close that there was no keeping any secrets. And now I can't even get through to her. I love her, I don't want nothing to happen to her. If she's hurt, I'm hurt. I wish I could control my emotions but I can't!"

Her body pretty much fell to the ground as she removed her phone from her ear and started sobbing.

I have NEVER and I really do mean NEVER seen Isabelle this upset. And all over me. And all because I didn't know how to handle my situation.

Truth be known, I had a miscarriage. That was shocking to me, because I didn't even know that I was pregnant. I was only a few weeks. I'd already changed then, for some stupid reason, but my change got worser when I realized I lost my baby. My first baby. Who knows what he or she would've looked like? Who knows what he or she could have been.

I'll never know, no one will never know. Teddy made it clear that he didn't want to have kids with me anyway. I was so mad at him! I wanted him to hurt like I was hurting, but I wasn't going to cheat on him. I was going to ignore him until I found the right words to break up with him.

It's funny, after I told him about my miscarriage, he acted like he didn't give a fuck about me. That hurt me more than anything, since I thought he truly loved me.

So what did I do? I started lashing out at the one person who was the closest to me. The one person who would never hurt me like other people do. My BETTER other half.

I looked over at Isabelle to see her hyperventilating and holding on to her shirt tightly. Her face looks red, she can't catch her breath, and she's reaching out for her phone.

I hurried over to her phone to see that she was still in a call. I exited that call then dialed three digits. I have NEVER seen her like this and I do not know what to do!

{Jahlil}

"Mr.McClain, you have a visitor.", Paula, the receptionist, announced

A visitor?

"Okay, send them in."

She went away then my mother came through the door. She came over and sat in the chair in front of my desk.

"I'm busy. What do you want?"

Really, I've just been sitting here trying to figure out what to do. I have love for Abby. I care for Abby a lot... But I cannot be with her. As dumb and as crazy as it may sound, I'm still in love with Malia. I don't know how. She's broke my heart three times. I took her back twice. And I would like to take her back a third time, but she is having another man's baby? How do I get over something like that? I don't know, I guess I'm just confused right now. The best thing I can do for myself is learn to be by myself.

I'm also concerned about my children. Malia told me about her failed attempt to get those two back close again. Did she really think that one conversation would make them go back to how they were? I really hope not. Once a bond is damaged, it takes time to repair it. At least she tried though, I guess.

"Son did you hear me? I'm sorry."

"The only reason you're saying sorry is because you know it's the right thing to do. You probably don't even mean it."

I started shuffling through my papers, pretending like I actually had something to do.

"Jahlil I'm saying it because I was out of line. I don't have the room to knock anyone's parenting methods. I only raised you for what, seven or eight years? I missed your transformation from a little boy to a young man. I missed out on a lot of your life. When I left you were a cute little boy. When I came back you were a handsome young teen.  I'm sorry if I overstep my boundaries, but I just want to help you raise my granddaughters. I want to help give them a better life than I could give you. I'm so sorry that I put you through so much."

I let out a deep sigh then shook my head. I've already forgiven her for the past. And plus, she wasn't my only parent. Why does she always have to bring up the past? Sh-

My phone buzzing against my desk got me out my thoughts. I looked at my phone to see a picture of Malina on my screen.