cannot be | baekyeon

Fifteen

Tuesday, July 7, 2015

[Girls' Generation talk about entering the girl group battle and promoting with Wonder Girls]

Baekhyun had a blank expression on after reading a newly posted article about Girls' Generation regarding their comeback. Many girl groups were having their very own comebacks this summer which is why they were calling it a battle or a war between girl groups, whether it was a senior, a junior group or even rookies.

As expected there were a lot of feedbacks and some criticism, especially how it was more than a year since they had released their song Mr.Mr. last February 28, 2014. The reason why it took that long to have their comeback is for everyone to have sufficient rest and also because of Jessica's departure that was announced later on, on September 2014. Seeing hate comments were understandable, since they all chose to keep quiet about the issue, they didn't give any explanation at all. They knew that it's impossible for everyone to forget about all about it, but they had to at least let the public cool down, and yes it took that long for all the netizens to stop with all their arguments about their own opinions and theories.

Nonetheless, she and the current members of the group are perfectly okay. Jessica would even sometimes hangout with them at their dorm whenever she's at South Korea. However they weren't allowed to speak anything about it on any possible shows they would be invited in, interviews, fan signings and so on. Any types of communication on social medias were not allowed as well, like mentioning each other on their captions, and posting pictures with the nine of them were definitely a no no. They had all agreed on it though, because it might have an even worse effect on the public viewers if they did. Just like everyone says, some things are better left unsaid.

Baekhyun felt bad about Jessica's departure too, of course, he himself is also a SONE even way before he became an idol. So, he understands the pain that every SONE had went through, it was definitely difficult for them. But it had to be done, as painful that it could get, they had to understand that it's for Jessica. They had to let her go for her happiness.

Baekhyun tried to ease his mind by opening his instagram, scrolling down on his feed and it too came to his mind whether he should upload a photo or not but after a few minutes he decided not to. He then started playing some mobile games that were already installed on his phone, after losing all of his lives and struggling at some parts on certain levels, he eventually gave up. He even organized some of his photos on his gallery but it was just no use.

He was obviously frustrated at how he couldn't think of anything to calm him down or maybe even keep him busy. He almost felt like he could pull all of hair apart and not care about it at all. He hates this kind of feeling, he hates how he's somehow stuck in this kind of predicament and he can't bring his self to do anything at all.

He quickly went to his contact list, hopelessly searching for that one and only person that always seem to come first in his mind.

baekhyun:
noona, i've seen the mv and i couldn't help but notice that you've lost a lot of weight.. is it true that you're barely eating at all?|

baekhyun:
noona, i've seen the mv and i couldn't help but notice that you've lost a lot of we|

baekhyun:
noona i miss you..|

baekhyun:
noona i mis|

baekhyun:
i'm still in love you..|

baekhyun:
i'm still in lov|

baekhyun:
noona how are you?|

baekhyun:
sunbaenim, congratulations on your comeback! ^^

(sent)

Only God knows how bad he wanted to hit himself on the face right now. He felt so weak and fragile, it was like just one touch on his body, and it would break him into pieces. He wanted to cry so badly, but he knew he shouldn't because Taeyeon must be feeling so much and a lot more pain than he is experiencing right now.

"I'm such a loser."

He said to himself, then slowly losing consciousness as his surroundings went all blurry, but hearing his phone ring before everything turned black.

You have received 5 new messages!

taeyeon:
baekhyun?

taeyeon:
where are you?

taeyeon:
i'm worried about you.

taeyeon:
i'm looking for you right now.

taeyeon:
please be okay.

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