Her Innocent Ways { discontinued }

Chapter 7

~flashback~

"You'll be okay I promise" he said

I shook my head tears in my eyes

'Ill never love again..I'll never find a guy who will treat me like you did..I'll be living with my 10 cats" I said through tears

His soft laugh rang through the airport

"My little poppy-bear you'll be okay I'll be back before you know it I promise" he said kissing me

I kissed him longer. Knowing this was a goodbye.

He may have cheated. Drank a lot. And sometimes a butt

But I love him..he was my thick and thin cold and warm . He treated me as though I was a princess

He was my rock. My everything and now he was leaving me..

"I love you.." I whispered

He smiled "I love u too my little bear" he said kissing my head with a smile and walked to the fight attendent handing her his ticket before shooting me one last smile

Little did I know it was the last time I'll ever see him again..

3 months later

My cell began to ring

Walking over to it I picked it up

"Is this Ms.Penelope" a mans voice rang through the phone

"This is she" I said confused

"We are sorry to inform you..but Juno Alveraze has di--" the phone dropped from my hand and fell to my knees

I screamed and cried til my throat was raw

My rock...he's broken...he's gone..crumbled.. Gone forever never to be seen again

~present time~

I opened my eyes..

I'm always a cheerful person. But every year on this day..

I drop the act. I give up. I don't leave. I weep. I'll never get over him...no matter how hard I try. I try every day. But today is the day I don't try the day he died the day he crumbled

I sobbed loudly in the hotel room.

Letting everything I've been keeping in

Alika ran into the room coming to cuddle with me while bunny was already in here with his head in my neck

"He's gone..he's never coming back I thought I'd be over his death but...he was my first love." I said through the sobbs

I squeezed bunny and Alika closer too my chest and just cried I missed him so much..

After letting it out I went and got icecream from the fridge

I looked at my old case.

My brother had given me it as a gift since he missed my last birthday

I haven't played in a while

Taking the guitar case I took out my white guitar

I strumbed the cords

And all I remember is your back
Walking towards the airport, leaving us all in your past
I traveled fifteen hundred miles to see you
Begged you to want me, but you didn't want to

But piece by piece he collected me
Up off the ground where you abandoned things, yeah
Piece by piece he filled the holes
That you burned in me at six years old
And you know,
He never walks away
He never asks for money,
He takes care of me
He loves me
Piece by piece he restored my faith
That a man can be kind and a father could... stay

And all of your words fall flat
I made something of myself and now you wanna come back
But your love-it isn't free, it has to be earned
Back then I didn't have anything you needed so I was worthless

But piece by piece he collected me

I sang the song letting my emotions fill my voice

I sighed putting the guitar down

I decided I wasn't going to the animal shelter today I wasn't in the mood

The real reason I had left to London was because my old house had brought to many memories of Juno and all the hugs , laughs, and cuddles we shared

I signed lightly hugging the pillow to my chest falling into deep sleep

With dreams of the things we did

All the bad

All the good