I'm Unbroken. ~(Sequel to I'm Not Leaving)

Chapter 1.

Panicking, I ran upstairs and searched for my laptop. Where the fuck is that? My room ended up a tip by the time I had given up looking, and instead, I opened safari on my phone and typed in realistic dreams. Lucid Dream. 

So everything that happened, was me, dreaming and totally in control of my actions.

I am in love with a girl, who doesn't even exist. 

I have these strong connections with kids I thought were my siblings, who don't even exist.

Everything I had experienced, that made me happy, was all just a fucking dream.

Now here I am, back on day one, where everything began. I am going to have to go back to school, and start over completely with making friends, and finding love all over again. Tears started falling freely from my eyes as I replayed a few scenes from my realistic dream.

Brittany, was so fucking perfect and I was so happy with her. Yet, she doesn't even exist and I am so, so in love with her. She made me so happy, and made me feel things I haven't felt before, like love. I have never had feelings for anyone like that before. She was my first, one true love, yet she doesn't even exist.

I slowly slid down onto the floor, as I cried harder than I think I had ever cried before. It all just felt so real. I thought I was finally happy, and where I need to be in life. But I am completely fucking wrong. Real, is what I am experiencing right now. I will soon have to face reality, get over this fictional girl I am in love with, and move on with my old, boring life, with my mother and Abuela.

Hold on,

Can't I just re live my dream?

I can just go from where it started, do everything exactly the same.

Surely, my brain didn't just make up a whole bunch of random people. They must be out there, Brittany, must be out there. Somewhere.

If I can just re live everything that had happened, when all of this happened, then surely in a few months, I will be exactly where I was at in that dream. I could be living with my dad, and Brittany will be about to move in and we will be planning to get hitched. It is all so perfect. 

I climbed up off the floor, checked the time, telling me I had fifteen minutes until school starts. I chucked everything I think I needed into my bag, then chucked it over my shoulder and raced out the door. A few short blocks away, Hannah should be sitting, crying. She is the key to the door I need to open. She is the one, that started it all. If I can convince her to friend me like I did in my dream, then everything else will come so easily. 

I quickened my pace, feeling the butterflies in my stomach grow as I become a little excited that I get to see Becca. I hadn't seen her in so long in my dream. It's like, I just forgot about her. That is what this all is, isn't it? Another chance to make everything right. I can make everything perfect, with no drama. All of those parties, I can stop the fights. I can make everything so good, if I could just find the blonde girl who should be curled up on the step, right -

Nothing.

She wasn't there. Had I failed at this one more chance already?

Nothing is going to work now.

I fucked up.

I ran my hands through my hair, as I decided what the hell my next step was. At this rate, my best option was to march right into my school, and find Becca, and try and patch it with her, then find Hannah in the crowd in the cafe, just like my first day of school in my dream. 

I began walking towards the place that changed me entirely. Well, in that dream anyways. Dammit, I hate how it was all a fucking dream. I miss people, whom don't even know I exist, or, who don't even exist themselves. Walking through the main gate sent shivers down my spine. I hated everything about being here, to the point that I was regretting coming here entirely.