Should Have Said No (Poem)

I was wrong,

thought I was strong,

could walk away from the pain

all that we had was in vain.

So you stand here now,

like you could do no wrong

looking at you makes me miss

all that we were

and all that you let go.

Turned your back on me,

because you couldn't swallow your pride,

denied what we had.

Threw me like a rag doll

Discarded and hurt,

Battered and bruised

shattered pieces of me everywhere,

how would I ever find the strength to go on?

Only way was to forget all that we had

Convinced myself love doesn't exist,

trust could never last,

truth never prevails,

hope would always crash

and I will always hurt.

Locked my emotions in a box,

so heavy and fragile,

I tossed it in the sea,

so deep,

no one could ever reach.

I forgot one thing,

To deny the love was impossible

So many emotions when you're near me.

The box so weak,

shattered and I came undone,

at your mercy once again.

All the hurt and pain,

could take no more.

There is no running away from you.

I meant nothing to you

So I choose the path I swore I would never take.

I closed my eyes,

your smile the last thing I recall

when you get this letter,

hope that you'll always remember

every time you hurt me,

every moment you heard me cry

and refused to swallow your pride

you brought me towards my last breath

You left me no choice

but to take my own life