Fate

Chapter 39

"Morning sweety." My mom says walking in my room with a tray full of food.

"Morning mom." I say taking the tray from her.

"How do you feel?" She says.

"I'm fine." I lie.

I don't feel as dandy as I did yesterday morning.

"So today's Thursday. You have anything going on?" She says with a smile.

"Mom no. Do you think I would?" I say rubbing my hair.

"No sorry. Ill be in my room if you need me." She says closing my bedroom door.

I don't want to leave here. I'm comfortable.

As I'm about to get up, someone barges in.

"Are you okay?" Taylor says.

She looks panicked as if she didn't sleep for a few months.

"Taylor, I'm fine." I say with relief.

"I'm glad your here."

"Yeah, Harry called me at 2 am saying you we're in the hospital. Are you alright?" She says grasping both my arms.

She doesn't know. How could she not know? I don't want to repeat it...

"Ummm. Taylor." I say looking away from her.

"What?" She says looking at me.

"I lost the baby." I say starting to form tears.

"Stella. No." She says putting a hand over mouth.

She keeps her hand there and sits down on my dresser. She doesn't have to try hard, she just leans back.

"I'm alright Taylor, don't worry." I say.

"I'm so sorry. I can't imagine how you feel." She says rubbing her forehead.

"I'm fine Taylor." I lie.

"No it's not. I feel so bad. Can I do anything?" She offers.

"No. Not that I can think of." I say wiping my tears.

"I'll be here for you. No matter what." She says hugging me tighter.

"Thanks." I say.

"So what are you going to do about Harry?" She asks.

Oh god the name just makes me cringe. I left him at the hospital alone standing there.

"Um." Is all I can say.

"Have you talked to him?" She asks.

"No. I just remember him yelling at me. I think he expected me to go home with him." I say confused.

"Why didn't you?" She asks.

"He's not my boyfriend." I remind her.

"I know but-" she says until I interrupt her.

"There is no but. It's over. I just need to get my stuff from his place and move on." I say.

It pains me to say this but it's true.

"A little harsh Stel." Taylor says rolling her eyes.

"Well I don't have anything to do." I say.

"I guess me neither. Ill just leave you alone if you want." She says looking around my room.

"No, I enjoy your company. I just want time for myself." I say hoping she'll understand.

"I gotcha. Ill just stop by every other day and see how you are." She says.

"Okay." I say.

Taylor leaves my room and we continue the same thing every other day. I try to go back to my old routine which was my job that I lost. I try to find a job, I go shopping, I do what I haven't even able to do.

I do all of this without Harry.

Taylor ends up telling Liam and we got together a few times to talk like we used to.

Harry's mom knows about the miscarriage and so does Niall and Zayn.

What happened to those boys?

A week later it's Thursday and Im excited for my sister I come into town.

*THURSDAY THE 28th of NOVEMBER*

"Well honey in two days Aleah comes into town!" My mom says while cooking dinner.

I sit there and realize that the day she comes into town, that was the day of my appointment.

"Yeah mom, I know." I smile.

"Aren't you excited?" She says wiping flour on her apron.

"Yea I am. She's always gone it's gonna be hard to let her leave again." I shrug.

"She'll be here for awhile darling. Don't worry." She says throwing some meat on a pan.

"So I need to run down to the store. Need anything?" I ask.

"No Stella I'm fine." My mom says not making eye contact with me.

"Okay. Ill be back." I say closing the front door behind me.

The wind is getting colder and colder as the days pass.

I get into my car and I start it to go to the nearest Target.

I grab a box of tampons, some facial cleanser, shampoo, conditioner, deodorant, and some toothpaste.

Just as I'm about to get some snacks I hear someone calling my name.

It's Rick from NY Sounds.

"Stella hey! Is that you over there?" Rick says while approaching me.

"Yeah it is. Same old Stel." I say with a sarcastic hand movement.

"Haha I see. You doing fine?" He asks.

"Yeah I'm great." I go along.

"Well that was a fun run in but I gotta go back to work, Harry's busting my balls man." He laughs.

Harry. I haven't heard that name in a while.

"Oh okay. Goodbye." I say pushing my cart in front of me.

I notice he doesn't bring up my miscarriage, and I'm glad.

He probably heard about it but didn't want to say anything. I admire that.

I get whatever else I need, pay, then leave back to home.

That run in was so awkward especially since the last time I saw him he was at the store and I was going to surprise Harry.

That was also the day I met Gemma. I wonder if she knows.

"Mom Im home." I say closing the door.

"Perfect. Now shall we eat my delicious meatloaf and bread?" She asks with a smirk.

"Yes we shall." I say playing along.

We both eat our dinner and I go straight to my room and fall asleep, as usual.

I feel a vibration on my phone and it's Harry calling me. The last time he bothered calling me was Monday.

I didn't answer but I thought he would be concerned about me. I guess not.

As I'm over thinking my phone buzzes again.

"Meet me at China Garden tomorrow at 5." The text message says.

It's from Harry.

What could he possibly want?

I let the idea sit in my head, I decide to go.