Fate

Chapter 19

STELLA'S POV

We both get into the car and he turns up the heat so that way we both don't die of frostbite.

"Where to?" He says with his eyes still on the road.

"I don't know, Chili's?" I say with confusion.

"Okay, sounds good." He says turning his head.

I smile and wait for us to get there.

We get to Chili's and walk together to the entrance.

Harry smiles and opens the door and I walk in as he follows. The hostess greets us and walks over to give us our seats.

We sit at a booth and Harry seems pleased.

"What would you like to start out with? " she says handing us menus.

"I'll take an iced tea." I say.

"And you sir?" She says looking at Harry.

"I'll take a coke please." He says.

"I'll be back in a second." She smiles and walks away.

Harry doesn't say anything.

I try to make things a little less awkward by flashing a small smile to him.

When I turn my head, I see a young woman and a man feeding their baby. He's in a high chair sitting next to the mom.

My gosh. That's going to be me, and hopefully Harry if he decides to be in our baby's life.

Just looking at them makes me feel uncomfortable. We're not a couple. We're not dating. In fact, this is just one of the times we've gone to dinner.

He sees me staring at them and he looks at me.

"Stella-" he says being interrupted by the waitress bringing our drinks.

"Here you go!" She says handing us our drinks.

"Do you know what you would like to order yet? An appetizer?" She says opening her notepad.

"I'm not ready." I say breathing fast.

"Okay, I'll be back in a few minutes." She says leaving.

"What's wrong?" He says touching my hand.

I pull away so that way I don't cry in public.

I'm not ready. For all of this.

"Nothing. What are you going to order?" I say changing the subject.

"Ummm, I'm going to get a nice burger." He says smiling.

"Okay." I say.

"And you?" He says asking me.

"I'll get a grilled chicken sandwich." I say calmly and randomly. I don't even care.

"Alright is that it?" The waitress says overhearing our conversation.

That's so weird, she was eavesdropping.

"Haha erm yeah." Harry says.

We both give her our menus and take awkward sips from our drinks.

I still see the couple in my peripheral vision, and it makes me wonder. Will that ever be us? I would be able to answer if I knew Harry more, but I don't. I start to get anxious to the point where I don't want to see Harry anymore. I'm overwhelmed.

"Are you sure your alright?" Harry asks me again.

"I'm fine!" I say raising my voice a little bit.

"I don't want to be here anymore Harry. Can we leave?"

"Leave? We just got here?" He says in shock.

"Yes!" I say standing up and walking away.

"Stella what has gotten into you?" Harry says chasing after me.

I don't say anything and leave the scene I just caused.

I make my way to the car and wait until Harry comes.

"Can you opens the doors?" I say pulling the handle impatiently.

"Not until you tell me what just happened?" Harry says shoving the keys back in his pocket.

"Why should I tell you?" I say crossing my arms. I know I owe him an explanation but I can't handle myself.

"Because you just ruined our dinner Stel." He says shrugging.

"I'm sorry Harry." I say.

He doesn't respond and opens the doors so we can leave.

"You do realize that I was actually enjoying dinner." Harry starts the car.

"How? By watching how miserable I was ?" I say rolling my eyes.

"Your miserable, with me?" He asks frowning.

"No not with you." I admit to myself.

We both stay silent and keep the drive very awkward and uncomfortable. After 15 long minutes we get to the apartment. I've never been so happy to see it.

I finally calm myself and find the words to say to him.

"Harry I really am sorry. How about we just order some pizza?"

"That's fine." he says taking off his black coat and unlocking the door.

"Alright, let me call." I say grabbing my phone out.