ʀᴜᴅᴇ - ᴊ.ᴊ COMPLETED

c h a p t e r 4

• J a c k G. P O V •

I felt so bad on knocking out Emily I felt like I should write 'GUILTY' in my forehead with a sharpie.
When I was in front of Emily in the sidewalk I didn't want her to scream because Johnson, Matthew, Carter, and some kid Johnson decided to put
in named Sammy.
But I didn't want to be with them at the moment, I wanted to be with Emily and tell her everything what I did.

And of course why I stopped bullying her.

When I heard Johnson scream I just got her hand and ran to her house. We got to her house and I opened the door
got her inside and I locked the door and turned around to see Emily mad.

Shit

"Gilinsky,"

She started off saying

"Wait I could explain every-"

I got cut off

"No! Why the fuck did you decided to go knock me out for no reason and put me in back of your car,"

She said...pissed

"That's what I'm going to te-"

I got cut off again

"Do you see me talking"

She snapped at me and I nodded and she turned back around not looking at me

"And the other thing I want to know is,"

She said and turned around looking at me

"Why you just stopped bullying me? I mean that's good, but it was surprising"

She said and I stood quite looking at her and I was thinking how to start
All of this and where I could begin

"Ok, well that's why I'm here, and this is why im right here standing in front of you, to tell you what happened."

I said calm and trying to calm her down but she was pissed so I couldn't do anything about that. I pointed to the sofa
and she walked over and sat down then I went and sat down. When I did she looked at me with a face like, ok so what happened.

"Ok so, the first thing I want to talk about is why I stopped, then I'll go on to why I knocked you...out, and why"

I started off. Then I started to tell her why I stopped and it was because I felt guilty.
All of the guiltiness was inside me and I couldn't hold it.
And now why I knocked her out was because Johnson set me up he want me to go get her for 'we' could beat
her up for all the things she did to us, because she has hit us back and its very pain full.
But, I told her everything and she had her face like she understands everything but still mad at me a little about that.

"Ok but are you still mad at me?"

I said hoping she wasn't

"Nah, that's the only thing I wanted to know, why is there something else?"

She said getting closer to me

"No no nothing else"

I said then she went back and it was quite and I wanted to say something but nah.
It was completely 3 minutes of not talking and I decided to just break the silence

"Ok soo... I'm gonna go home, or where every they aren't around soo....bye?"

I said and getting up then I felt
A hand in mine and I saw her on her knees in the sofa bringing down to sit down.

"Wait,"

Was all she said and it looked like if she was thinking on what to say

"What happened?"

I said waiting for her and I looked
down and our hands were still
Together.
I didn't want to let go but I just did and when I did she looked down
seeing me let go but she started to
Talk.

"So, that's all? That's the reason why,
I mean ok...cool I guess, but the only reason why I still don't get is why you stopped bullying me, I know you felt guilty but there has to be a reason for it"

And when she said that we were
looking in each other eyes but I looked away
And all I could think of was

Shit, shit, shit
What do I tell her! Should I or should I not

That keep repeating and repeating and I couldn't handle it in my head and i just blurted/screamed it out

"I HAVE A CRUSH ON YOU"