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Chapter 29

(On god this isn't edited that much, correct any mistakes.)

*Final chapter*

Justin

Guilt.

It was the only fùcking thing that consumed me whenever I was near Sequoia, deep guilt. The guilt that won't let me touch her nor look at her in the eye, for once in my life; I felt guilty for cheating. She didn't deserve my sleazy ways, she never did but she put up with them for a long time.

Now, I was treating her like I did Penelope but only this time I loved her enough to hide it from her. Trust me, I wanted to stop but Sarah is so persistent and persuasive, like me. The first time I actually gave into her attempts, when we were alone after work. Sarah asked me to walk her to her car, I didn't think she would go down on me in a parking lot but she did and I let her.

Every time after that, I tried to avoid her but she wasn't giving up and when she didn't, I gave in. She even tried me in front of Ryan, which caused both of us to end up fighting and getting sent home early. That was the day I lost one of my closest friends, he only wanted to help me but I don't listen. Of course I wouldn't, Sarah was a temptress and I was the fool, right?

Believe it or not, I love Sequoia with every fiber in my body and I hope she knew that too. My behavior had been questionable lately, I knew she was becoming worried especially after the conversation with Penelope yesterday. Sequoia had been persistent about asking me about work, or whatever else she knew about. If I wasn't careful, I would be caught and she would leave me. God, I couldn't have her leaving me, I'd go crazy.

I was sure there was a permanent scowl on my face as I thought about her away from me, it was unfair and selfish to keep her near me if I was still seeing Sarah. She didn't deserve that, or anything else i put her through but I need her with me; Sequoia is everything to me and who would want to loose their everything?

"Baby are you okay?" the soft voice asked, it wasn't Sequoia's either. My chest tightened with guilt, it was so tight I had to clench my fist and close my eyes before murmuring a quick yes to Sarah so I could convince her to leave me alone but even that didn't work because she kept pushing. "Justin, are you thinking about Sequoia again? Really?"

I always think of her.

When I didn't reply, Sarah huffed as she stood from the bed of the cheap motel we started to stop by a few days back; only when we both needed release though. I opened my eyes just as she walked around and kneeled down in front of me, biting her lip rather seductively. "I swear I can make you forget about her faster than you can remember her face."

Now that angered me, why would I want to forget anything about my doll? "I don't want to forget about her, are you crazy?" I sneered, her lips lifted into the conniving smirk she always gave me; it was a smirk that she gave whenever she was going to make a good point, like an I told you so look.

"I'm not crazy, but I know you're trying to forget about her if you're here with me about to fùck my brains out again, right?"

She was right, I was here trying to rid my mind of Sequoia so I could enjoy yet another orgasm from Sarah but the guilt was choking me; Sarah knew it was too. That's why she was almost glaring at me, obviously she didn't like that I was thinking of Sequoia when I was supposed to be with her. But Sarah didn't know, just a single thought of Sequoia makes me want to go running home to her, where I belonged.