That Shadow (PHAN)

Part twelve

Tyler P.O.V

I knocked on the apartment door, but no one answered. I pulled out the spare key that Dan had given me and unlocked the door. I walked in a filled a cup of water, I heard to the television was on so I went into the lounge to see if they were in there.

I went into the lounge and saw he boys sleeping. Phil was at the back of the couch with Dan in front. Phil's hand was caught in Dan's hair and his other arm was wrapped around Dan keeping him from falling off the couch.

I turned off the television and off the hall lights. I went back into the lounge and put my cup down on the coffee table, I wasn't going to hang around incase they woke up, but it would simply be better to leave. I looked at them one more time, I looked at Dan mostly because his face was bright red and tear stained. He had been crying, but why?

I didn't have time to think, I just wanted to leave incase one of them woke up and was startled by me. I felt the same pain in my stomach that I had felt earlier on the subway. I didn't know what this feeling was, but I needed to try to sort this out. I was never good at sorting out my emotions, but it's not like I could exactly talk to Dan or Phil.

After the meeting I got onto the closest underground and headed towards the restaurant. My phone buzzed, it was from Phil, he said they were there, I quickly replied that I would be there in about 10 minutes. I put my phone down on my lap and started to think through my emotions.

I knew that I felt jealous when Phil had texted me. I didn't know anymore. I didn't want to think about it anymore. If the emotions name came to me it came, and if it didn't then I wasn't going to try to think about it anymore.

I arrived at the restaurant and went in, the women at the counter led me to their table where I say them sitting next to each other, I sit across from them. I looked at them and Dan's arm moved down from his lap to the small opening that was between them. Phil's arm then moved to the opening and tensed a little.

They were holding hands. The pain began again. I just started a normal conversation with them before I let the silence get too awkward. Our dinners arrived and we ate. The boys at this point let go of each others hands to dig into our colossal steaks. I dug in myself after posting a quick picture on Instagram. I looked up every now and then to see how they were, but everything continued. I ordered a beer and Dan ordered his second, but Phil stayed with pop. Phil never drunk, and I have never seen him, and I don't plan on ever hearing even a story of when he did.

I looked back up after I had had my fill, I scanned Dan who was taking a sip of his beer. I then looked over at Phil and felt that pain in my stomach again. I put my fork down and then just starred at him for a while. Then it hit me all of a sudden.

I was jealous of Phil. I wanted Dan for myself, I wanted to be the man that was with him, not Phil. I told myself that I didn't have any feelings for either of them, but I had lied of myself. I had a crush on Dan for a while now and I didn't even know it. I couldn't believe myself, I wanted Dan to myself!

I felt my face drop Phil continued to look at his plate, but Dan looked up at me. "Tyler are you okay?"

Dan P.O.V

Our dinner was amazing, it was the best steak that I had had for a while. I looked up because I had finished my steak. I didn't think in the beginning that I would be able to finish it, but then I remembered my huge appetite and just laughed inside my head, not wanting to draw attention to myself by randoming laughing aloud.

I grabbed my beer and took a sip and looked over at Tyler. He looked at his plate and then his face dropped. He looked sad and lost. "Tyler, are you okay?" I asked. His head snapped up and he starred at me, his face blushed.