That Shadow (PHAN)

Part Nine

Tyler P.O.V

I woke up, I rubbed my eyes and put on my glasses. I felt fully awake even though the clock read 9:50am which was extremely early for me. I stumbled out of my makeshift bed and turned towards Dan's bedroom to see if he was awake. His and Phil's door was know open unlike last night when I got up to turn off the hallway lights.

I quickly peered into Dan's room, but it was empty. I looked down the hallway and all the lights where still off. I turned to look into Phil's room, and I saw him. Dan was laying on Phil's chest with his eyes shut. Phil's head was leaning against Dan's looking peaceful. I had had that feeling for a while that they were together. As soon as I had got here the night before I was almost completely positive.

I felt a pang of emotion within me, but I simply pushed it back. Was I jealous that they had a real relationship and I didn't?

I didn't want to think about that. I was happy for them, and I always saw them together from the very beginning as soon as I had meet them in person. But how was I going to bring up such a sensitive subject? I wasn't going to keep this knowledge from them, but I didn't want to force them.

I heard one of them stir in the bedroom, I quickly walked away from the door frame without looking back not wanting to get caught. I shuffled them into the lounge and waited.

Only two minutes later Dan walked in and said to me "Tyler, I saw you."

Phil P.O.V

I could hardly sleep at all, I kept waking up, shivering without Dan there to keep me warm. I missed snuggling with him, but not until tomorrow when we told Tyler because there is still the fact that he could walk in on us.

I heard shuffling in Dan's room, it got quicker until I heard him right outside my door. I rolled over and looked at him, his eyes were widened, but why? I looked at the clock, 4:13am. I looked back at Dan, he rubbed his hand along his forearm, I still stared in confusion. I looked passed him and realized two things very quickly. The hall lights were off, and Dan didn't only look worried, he looked terrified.

I sat up in my bed and scotched over to the far left side. Dan shuffled farther into the room and sat down on the bed. He intertwined his legs with mine under the duvet cover and sunk down enough to rest his head on my chest.

I slowly sank back into the bed pushing Dan as well so his head remained on my chest. I listened to his breathing that was at first quick and jagged, but now was smooth and small. I kissed Dan lightly on the top of his head. As I closed my eyes I thought to myself, why did Dan pick you? He could have picked anyone else in the world, but he picked you! And know that he still picked the mess that is you and made you even better than you already are. And now you must pick up his pieces and put them together for him before he completely falls into oblivion. He picked me! I closed my heavy eye lids and I knew, that I didn't care if Tyler saw us at this point, I just want to be happy.

I woke up and was still all warm and tingly from last night. I looked over at the clock and saw it was almost noon. My chest where Dan's head was previously laid was gone, but still warm meaning that he must have gotten up recently.

I heard faint whispers in the lounge announcing that Tyler was up too. I looked around the room for my sweatshirt, but I then remembered that Dan was wearing it. I didn't mind, I just simply went into his room and grabbed his dark grey sweatshirt that was thrown on top of the piano bench.

I shuffled into the kitchen where three cups of coffee sat. I picked up the full one believing that it was probably meant for me. I added some creamer and then went into the lounge to find Dan with a cup of tea, and Tyler with a small brown spot in his shirt from where it looked as though he spilt his coffee.

I sat right next to Dan, but didn't touch him because Tyler seemed to be studying my every move. I raised one eyebrow and gave him a slightly worried look. He looked at me and then Dan and then to the floor. He was never this quite.

He knows.

The thought came racing into my head so quickly it almost hurt.

He saw me and Dan last night, and he know. He doesn't want to bring it up to make us feel pressured, but he 100% without a doubt in my mine knows.

I sipped my coffee and then set in on the coffee table.

"Um, Tyler?" I say softly, he looks up. It was almost insane to see him like this, like he was holding something back. "Um, I guess I, I mean we-" he cut me off with his hand. I help his hand up and leaned up in the chair he was sitting in.

"Phil," he said softly. I looked over to Dan who was looking at the floor nodding. "Me and Dan already talked." He stopped. My face dropped, I was surprised and shocked. Dan didn't want to tell Tyler at all, but I could tell that he was forcing himself to do so. I looked over at Dan and nudged him with my knee. "Dan?" I plead.

"Phil, this morning when I woke up I saw Tyler outside the door, he tried to move, but I saw him try to get away. We talked about it already and he is just fine with it." He swallowed hard and dry, then continued, "I told you we would tell him tomorrow unless it was brought up earlier, and it is 'tomorrow' and it was brought up earlier that I expected."

I looked back at Tyler, his face was red. He giggled, he was never one of those really serious friends. "I still love you two nerds!" he said standing up and rustling both of our fringes with his hands. This was the only time that I had felt small next to Tyler, but I then laughed because how couldn't you with him.

Tyler stood up and pointed his phone at us, "Say instagram!" he squealed. I heard to snap and then went onto my phone and went to his account where he already had a couple hundred likes after the picture only being posted for a near 10 seconds. I looked a fake sad and Dan looked embarrassed because he had his adorable hobbit hair which he hated.

The caption said, "With these two nerds in London, hope to see y'all soon!☺"

I laughed and showed Dan my phone where he starred horrified and then laughed cause you could see Tyler's crappy pajamas in the mirror. We laughed the rest of the morning, with Dan cuddling with me, and Tyler looking at us with his loving, caring, and energetic eyes as he always has.

Nothing had changed, now maybe I could do this coming out thing again.