WWE: Good Girls Go Bad

Memories of Him

(Jean's Pov)

The first memory starts. He had kissed me the week before and hasn't talked to me since. I finally corner him. We are talking and he says this "jean you are my best friend

and i don't want to loose you. I'm so sorry for what i did but i don't regret it. But, I hate that i messed us up. I let my emotions get the best of

me." "Just stop apologizing." "I have to and just accept it and let me go i really can't take rejection." "Not once! Have you asked me how i feel.

Why are you setting yourself up for rejection before you 100% know the answer?" "What?!" "The truth is i've loved you for a long time too. Now when

you stop sulking and realize that i'm not going anywhere come find me at our spot." I sigh and leave to go to our spot.He had found me shortly after.

I come out of that memory smiling. I change positions and am pulled into a different memory of Him from my very weird past. I'm in Cincinnati and I just had a fight with my newest Foster parents. I'm 16 and they treat me like i'm 6. I'm usually an Angel but i really don't like them so i act

like a devil child. I got grounded so i'm sneaking out my window. He's driving past my house he's got the car door open up so i can jump in on the 

run. "Your mom don't you that you are missing?" I nod. He kisses my chest. "She'd be pissed if she could see the parts of you that i'm kissing." I

just laugh. I say "Check out the trouble we're in." He laughs. I'm beside Him on the seat. I got my hand between his knees and i control how fast

we go by how hard i wanna sqeeze. "It's hard to steer when your breathing in my ear. But i got both hands on the wheel." "While i got both hands on

your gear." We smile. "By now no doubt we are heading south." "It feels so good like flickin on a switch i almost drove into the ditch." We're both

screamin "No we're never gonna quit ain't nothing wrong with it. Just actin like we're animals. No, No matter where we go everybody knows we're just

a couple animals." We park out by the track. We're in the back we just started getting busy when i whipser "What was that?" "The wind

I think cause no one else knows where we are." I see my dad. "That's my dad outside the car! Oh Please the keys they're not in the ignition?" "Must

have wound up on the floor while we were switching our positions." I guess they know i'm missing. I take off running as he tries to tell my dad it 

was my mouth that he was kissing. I fade out of the memory crying. We were in love. I get dragged into the most painful and last memory i have of 

Him. We were leaning against his car. "Jean i'm sorry i'm leaving for wrestling." "Okay i'll come with you." "No i'm leaving...Alone." "What do you

mean alone?" I ask getting upset. "It means i'm leaving and you're staying here." "You can't be leaving me. I love you i gave you all of me." "I'm 

so sorry Jean."  He leaves. It's been weeks. I say this to His smiling photo he left behind. "I'm so tired of being here. Suppressed by all my 

childish fears. And if you have to leave i wish you would just leave your presense still lingers here and it won't leave me alone. These wounds 

won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real.There's just too much that time cannot erase. When you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears, when

 you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears,And i held your hand through all of these years, but you still have all of me." I sigh and continue

to talk to His picture. "You used to captivate me by your resonating light Now I'm bound by the life you left behind Your face – it haunts my once 

pleasant dreams Your voice – it chased away all the sanity in me I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone But though you're still with me

I've been alone all along." I come out of the memory crying. Why did he have to leave? Why couldn't he have stayed or me gone with him? If i ever 

see Him in person again i'm going to make him know how it feels to have His heart torn to shreds.