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Tear in my heart; mayaxlucas// pt.3

Three days later.                                                                                                                                                                                Maya's pov

I cant believe it. I still cant swallow it, I'm ashamed.

I haven't eaten.

I haven't cried.

but I have breathed.. 

I didn't want to, I was ready to end to let go. Till I realized he did this. 

He gave me life

and they say love shows you, but the best type is a first love.                                                                                        because you never stop loving you're first love. 

You'll love them for an infinity. 

I had a great one. From first grade to My sixteenth year I was loved.

More then anyone ever will. 

Lucas damned Friar loved me so hard it killed him.                                                                                                           Took his life. Just to give me mine. I'll never be whole again.                                                                                        He's the tear in my heart. 

Three years later.                                                                                                                                                                                Maya's pov

"I've been told for so long if it hurts.

to know that everytime i take a breath its because of him. And i anwser every single damn time that its not because of him. 

But that its for him. 

Its love the kind that kills me more then it hurt when he died.

I would never kill myself, hurt myself, and more importantly I will never stop breathing.

I love Lucas Friar not because he died for me, because he lived for me.

It took me a while to realize it was always for me, I was his first friend. His first shoulder to cry on, His first kiss, His first movie buddy, His first lung-stealer, His first love. 

And now i'll do it for him.

That's why im here. That's why i breath, That's why I adopted Kadaline. Thats why three years later I'm here at his funeral because i refused to have one until i knew why I'm still here its because I love the tear in my heart. Thank you and I'd like to dedicate this song to Lucas"

I grabbed my microphone as i then saw a curtain open and a Projecter facing a wall 

"Hey Mom whats going on?"

"I think its best you sit down with Kadaline."

I then saw Lucas come on the screen and i gasped putting a hand over my mouth as tears threatened to come down

I grabbed Kadaline sitting her in my lap.

I then had my eyes glued to the screen as i heard 

"So Maya.. Wow you're sixteen today and your lying in a hospital bed. Boy we have some bad luck, Well you know I'm not good at this stuff but I want you to know ive loved you, everything about you. You're beauty, your tears, your face, your bravery, your fire, dammit i love you. That is why I'm doing this I hope one day you can forgive me and share your beauty and fire with someone else and if its even possible they can give you the same love I did. Now go move on be happy and do what youve always wanted to do. Travel the world spread your beauty, that's all I want from you, just live"

and after hearing that my dress had suffered the attacks of a tsunami from my beaming gray eyes.

"Mommy?"

"Yeah honey"

I said wiping my eyes turning towards her 

"Is that my daddy?"

I smiled at the seven year old 

"Yeah.. Thats you're daddy, he saved my life."

"So he's like..a super hero?"

I smiled at her 

"yeah, he is."

Then my mom turned to me smiling

"So Maya still up for that song?"

I wiped my eyes

"I was born ready."

"Sometimes you've got to bleed to know,

That you're alive and have a soul,
But it takes someone to come around to show you how.

he's the tear in my heart, I'm alive,
he's the tear in my heart, I'm on fire,
he's the tear in my heart, Take me higher,
Than I've ever been.

The songs on the radio are ok,
But my taste in music is your face,
And it takes a song to come around to show you how.

he's the tear in my heart, I'm alive,
he's the tear in my heart, I'm on fire,
he's the tear in my heart, Take me higher,
Than I've ever been.

You fell asleep in my car, I drove the whole time,
But that's ok, I'll just avoid the holes so you sleep fine,
I'm driving here I sit, cursing my government,
For not using my taxes to fill holes with more cement.

Sometimes you've got to bleed to know,
That you're alive and have a soul,
But it takes someone to come around to show you how.

he's the tear in my heart, I'm alive,
he's the tear in my heart, I'm on fire,
he's the tear in my heart, Take me higher,
Than I've ever been.

My heart is my armor,
he's the tear in my heart, he's a carver,
he's a butcher with a smile, cut me farther,
Than I've ever been. "

I then walked up to Lucas' casket smiling holding Kadalines hand and kissed my hand then placed it on the casket one tear escaping my eye 

"I love you too."

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AWHHHHHH FANGIRLING AND CRYING SO SAD I HAVE TO SAY I LOVE THIS STORY