A Part Of My Life

Yup School Now .....

I couldn't believe that I was actually going to school today I mean ugh God it's soo freakin .......

As I walked towards the entrance , I could feel everyone starring at me .... it was weird I mean I couldn't explain how bad n miserable I felt ..... then suddenly I saw Jake ..... He stood there talking to his frndz ..... for a change he look soo hot.... I mean like why was I suddenly all attracted to him..... but yea I kept starring at him.... the way he laughed ..... his smile ..... his eyes ..... shoot ! He caught me starring I quickly turned around n suddenly Em stood in front of me .....

The first thing she did was she hugged n told me in my ears " he's a freak I'm so sorry u had to go through all this "

" it's ok Em .... I'm alright now "

" How could that ass**** do that to u "

I giggled , feeling his stare , it made me blush ....

"Hello .... r u listening to me?"

" Umm yea "

"Well anyway I'll make sure he's far away from u "

" It's ok Em .... I'll handle him myself "

Although hurting or being rude to someone would be the last thing I'd ever want to do to someone..... but yea I was not going to hold back to wat he did to me.....

And so we headed to our classes ..... After the bell rung, I dashed into Zack ...... I ignored n walked away when he held my arm ..... I turned around .... I could see that he was sorry but I couldn't get fooled all over again .... it was just to much for to me ...

" Hey look I'm sorry , would I just gimm...."

"Look I don't care whether u wanna date that girl or not but please spare me "

" it's nothing like that I just ran into her while I was waiting for u "

" Oh really I think I did see u run ur hands through her hair like u really loved her "

" Well I'm sorry I couldn't be formal in front of my ex tho "

" Really ..... I mean .... u know wat .... I don't give a Damn!"

Everyone crowed around us ..... I felt embarred but at the same time relieved .....

I walk ahead when someone caught my hand again ....

" Will I just listen to me! Please just for once "

It was Zack n he pleaded like he'd let go of something if he did have that chance .... n so I stood there quitely .... the only hope I had in mind was whether I'd see Em or Jake .... Maybe he'd stand up for me .... but why was I soo lost ....

"Hey r u listening ...."

"Umm yea ..."

" The girl I saw me with was my ex n she works out there ... I just happen to offer her a seat as a good gesture.... I swear it was nothing like I think it was .... I was just sadden to hear about the breakup n soo I thought maybe caressing her cheak would make her feel better ..... Elizabeth I love you n I wouldn't want to loose u at any cost ...."

" All of a sudden ..... I felt I felt like I came back to normal , why did I think like that "

"Look I'm sorry ok if I want I can hit me go ahead .... but please don't leave me ...."

The only thing I could say then was
" I need time ...."

And I walked without saying a word .... I reached the table Sat n had my lunch .... later I planned to go home n sleep cuz all the crying had me very tired .....