Am I A Failure?

Jekyll And Hyde

I live my life, wondering where my talents lie,

but then I realise that actually, I'm an expert performer!

Playing the confident, charming, charismatic character oh so well,

Well...perhaps not so charming.

However, if you looked inside of me,

you wouldn't even be able to recognize who you were looking at.

The boy, riddled with insecurities,

his heart racing faster than the speed of light,

almost rupturing from his chest.

His hands, shaking so much,

they seem but blur of motion.

And so the charismatic character,

takes control of the situation,

and smoothly places them in his pockets.

It's Jekyll and Hyde,

one always covering for the other.

Getting him out of trouble in social situations,

or whenever shit hits the fan.

This schizophrenia,

a complete split in personalities,

one being the successful charismatic human being,

and the other.....just a weak, insecure failure.

Such an incompatibility,

with constant rising antagonism,

one of these days they'll destroy each other,

but it'll be me that they truly kill.

Although I'd like to say,

that this weak, nervous, anxiety stricken character,

this seemingly malicious, destructive personality,

is indeed Mr Hyde.

The sad truth to it is,

that this damaging liability of a character,

is actually Dr Jekyll,

because it is Jekyll that's the true personality.

And this confident, charming, charismatic character,

is all just a fake.