how to survive a one sided love • kth

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3. if yes, you may now give your attention to that person. aka 'you may now like him or her.'

warning: if no, i suggest that you find another cause you'll not succeed and i guarantee a great disaster.

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looking at him,

waiting for him to get out of his room,

stalking his social media accounts;

that's me,

to yoongi.

until our second year together,

i was finally diverting all of my attention to him.

i was happy liking him.

it's like for me,

he's also from another dimension.

he's also the typical lead guy.

well,

less snob,

less mysterious,

less secluded,

and less weird.

unlike you.

but the problem was,

he had a girlfriend.

oh wait—

that actually didn't even matter.

why?

because they broke up even before i knew it.

sad.

but yoongi seemed well.

i examined and observed him in every way that i can.

and there was something that i got from it.

he was easier to read.

unlike you,

you're very hard to read.

wait,

why am i mentioning you again?

oh right.

never mind.

yoongi seems to be the less snob version of you.

well, he's also a snob.

i tell you, he really is.

but he's the type of guy that will most likely talk to you if you have a problem

or

you just wanted to talk.

we were not close.

but those months of observing him,

i gathered some infos and of course saw it for myself.

he will act snob and be snob but he can be very friendly too.

my friends were very supportive.

speaking of friends,

did you know?

i had a new group of friends.

my two close friends on our first year were moved into a different section.

so, i came back as a loner on the first day of our second year.

but as i said, i got new friends.

great friends actually.

we were composed of eight people.

all girls.

tough right?

six of us loves dancing, so that's why we formed a group.

but enough of that for now.

yoongi was also an eye-catcher.

one of my old friends was crushing on him, like me.

and the saddest part was that, they were already close.

while yoongi and i?

no comment.

anyway, that didn't last long.

i made friends with him.

not literally though.

but we were kinda familiar with each other.

yeah, that's the term.

he knew that i existed,

and we knew each other as school mates.

wait, i don't even know if it's worse than my situation with you.

but whatever,

i was contented, okay?

i think i just wanted to unlike you.

but actually, yoongi helped me a lot.

i mean,

when it comes to being happy with my crush life.

he gave me those secret feelings that i always felt when i see you.

in a different way tho.

but,

to be very honest with you,

every time i walked in our class

and

every time we were trying to be busy because of the lessons.

i always found myself secretly glancing at you.

is that bad?

i mean,

i like yoongi so much right?

but why do i feel like every time we're in the same room,

it's always you?

okay,

this may sound very weird but there's really something about you that i couldn't forget.

but my mind was rejecting it.

so let's just brush it off for now, kay?

i'm not bitter or anything.

i just think that i like yoongi so much,

that it may actually turn out as something deeper.

what do you think?

i even got help from people just to gain informations about yoongi.

see?

i really like him.

or am i wrong?

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