dear you,
camp day 2
i did something really stupid today.
i brought you to the meadow
no that wasnt the stupid thing.
it was in the afternoon
the breeze was lightly blowing
dandelions around us
dancing around.
you were getting sleepy,
so i told you to take a nap.
you nodded,
and without asking
you set your head on my lap
" what are you doing? " i asked
i was panicking internally
i was surprised
my face was turning redder and redder
by the second
" napping." you answered in a duh-tone
" wake me up after an hour." you said with a yawn.
wanting you to get even a little rest
because you told me you
couldnt fall asleep
last night
due to your tentmate
who snores
like the thunder rumbling.
i agreed. biting my lip
until i tasted blood
because i was nervous.
i dont know why.
you,
i guess.
around half an hour passed,
your breathing was stable.
you looked at peace
and angelic
i mean you always do.
well..
you looked so cute.
your hair
they looked so inviting
making sure you were asleep
i slowly placed my hand
on your head
playing around with your hair
they are soft and fluffy
just like how they looked.
and i did the stupid thing
i did not know what came over me
at that moment
but it did
" i love you, hong jisoo. a lot in fact. " i said
in a soft whisper i thought couldnt be heard.
" but youre too precious to me. too much, i cant afford to ruin the friendship we have now. i just cant, all because of my selfish desires. " i sighed.
you squirmed a little.
i thought you were awake,
but looking down again
nope.
still peacefully asleep.
looking at you
a small smile unknowingly made its way up my face.
using my index finger i traced your brows
eyes
to your nose
and finally
reaching your lips.
they felt soft
very cushiony
how would it feel if i-
gosh what am i thinking of.
hong jisoo the things you do to me.
sincerely,
me.
