•broken suicidal•(on Hold)

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Quotes for this chapter: somewhere in the darkness,I lost myself.
Harry's p.o.v
I was already finish taking a bath,I am now driving to stacey and Chandria's house.since stacey gave me the keys to their house,I could easily go in.

I turned on the stereo,the first song that I heard was lost boy by 5sos,then a memory struck me. 5sos,they were my mates.after what happened,it was traumatizing.honestly I miss them,specially calum and ashton.

As the song played,I keep relating my self to the song.I think im going insane,lately things that I do like care for someone,be kind or relate myself to songs.this things,I havent really do this after the incident.

I sigh and closed my eyes for a moment and open it again,focussing on the road to the house of chandria and stacey.

After a few left and right turns I arrived at their house,I turned off the car engine and proceeded to walk towards their front door.fishing the key that stacey gave me from my pocket,I sigh before grabing the door handle.it feels like déjà vu,but the only diffrence is that chandria wasn't there to open the door and greet me.

I walked inside and look around it was dark,cold,isolated and lifeless.all the lights were off,the thermostat was off so the house is cold.I walk up stairs and headed to Chandria's room,I stopped again and looked at the white door,remembering when I slept with her,it was soothing in the past years,I never slept so good and comfortable.

Again,I opened the door and I was met by a dark,lonely,lifeless,cold room.I turned on the lights,I look around.it was just the same old room,but the pile of blood was already cleaned,I headed to the bed and lay down,looking up at the ceiling.as I study it,I saw some words,it was written in red pentel pen.I read it and said, save me.

It made me think,what does she mean by 'save me'.I sigh,knowing that I wont get the answer,I stood up and saw a black bag near her study table,I opened it. It was full of clothes,undergarments,toiletries,and a notebook.

A notebook?

Will I open it?I asked myself.

It's your choice.. My subconscious answered.

I was contemplating for a while,whether I should read it or not.

Eaten by my curiosity,I promised myself only to read one of it and im done.

I slowly opened it,I saw Chandria's handwriting it was a collection of poems,I read the 2nd entry.

It said:

Entry #2 2:47am

When you try your best to hide the pain but deep inside its crushing you into small pieces and you know that you cant pick it up again and build your self,because it hurts more than the last time it was shattered.

-chandria-

I was speechless,my head was swarming with thousands of question.

Suddely,my phone rang breaking my train of thoughts and questions.

I answered it,not even caring who it was.

Hello?I asked.

Hey mate,it's ashton.ashton said,

Talk about a small world.I mumbled.

Huh?what was that mate?ashton asked.

Uh,nothing...why did you called?I asked

Me and the other lads,we're coming home there.so we were thinking,let's plan a get together,just us...He said in a happy and excited tone.

What the fuck?too childish!