•broken suicidal•(on Hold)

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Quotes for this chapter:we cut flowers because we think they're beautiful,we cut our selves because we think we're worthless.

Charndria's p.o.v

Um,...i'll get my stuff first.i said

He just looked at me and nodded.

As i headed up to my room, i cant stop thinking of harry,why is he so cruel to me but at the same time kind?is that even possible?

Everyone is mean to you,dummy..that little voice again in my head said.

I didnt realize that i already knocked out a small vase,and little by little blood coming from my hand.

I looked at it,no pain felt just pleasure.

Just let it flow,.

Then a woosh sound was heared and a harry's figure was infront of me,.

Are you ok?he asked concern in his voice is evident.

I looked at him i never really saw the greeness of his eyes,all I saw was concern and worry.

I said are you fine!?he asked again in a loud tone

I-i think so?i answered but more like a question.

Doesnt it hurt or something?he asked curiously,now in a more calmer tone.

No.i said in a rush.

What!if other girls are in your place they would be crying out and almost dying.he said in a shock tone.

I dont know how to respond to this kind of situation and statement.

Nevermind!let's just clean your wrist..harry said.

He slowly grabs my wrist and I flinched a little bit,.

Oh,sorry..harry said.

No it's fine.I said

He slowly guided me to seat at the kitchen,.

Where's your first aid kit?he asked

At the comfort room cabinet.I answered.

He didnt answered,he just headed to the comfort room. After few second he came back with a cotton and betadine.

Curl up your sleeve. He instructed

I followed what he said and curled up my dark sleeve.

He was shock when he saw the cuts in my wrist.

I regret it following his instruction,im so stupid!now he's gonna look at me differently,I said to myself.

Everyone does,cause youre fucking slut.The little voice said.

WHAT THE FUCK?You cut your self?anger was visible in his voice

I can not speak,I was in the verge of crying.

Dont cry infront of him you'll look weak,.I reminded myself.

Are you stupid!?he shouted.

I cannot move, I was so taken back by what he just said

What's new?my self conscious said

I hate her so much.

Do you mean,you hate your self?my self conscious strikes again.

I havent noticed that his already cleaning my wounds,while studying it.

After that we headed back to the living room and I headed to ny room to get my stuff.