•broken suicidal•(on Hold)

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Quotes for this chapter:we need to put our words into actions

Harry's p.o.v
I didnt expect what just slip out of my mouth.

Can you please shut up!chandria,can you just agree to go with her.i'll help you study for your test.just shut the fuck up.

What the hell did i just said.
After chandria and stacey left us here to meet with my cousin,monica and louis' girlfriend,eleanor.

I never really mean to say that,maybe it's because of stacey's loudness and im so fucking annoyed.

Now im laying on my bed and thinking about what the hell i just said.

After few minutes of thinking.i think my mind is over-heating. So i decided to get my ipad shuffle,and put on my ear phones and blasted the music.
Relax harry.what is your problem?you're just gonna teach her.what is there to worry about?

That was the last thing i could remember after my eye lids got heavy.

There's just something about this girl that caught my attention.

Charndria's p.o.v
What the hell did i just do?
Harry is going to teach me?will he even know what to teach me!?

We came home like 8:30 pm we already had dinner at the mall.
Im so tired.
Who wouldnt be?
After going in 20 shops and try some clothes and some accesories.who wouldnt be!?

Would you even call it "some"?

We tried on victoria secret,burbery,chanel,christian dior,dolce and gabbana,escada,fendi,gucci,prada, La Perla Lingerie, Louis Vuitton,michael kors,missoni, Ralph Lauren, Roland Mouret, Stuart Weitzman, Tory Burch, Versace, Bulgari, and Harry Winston.

I think it's because eleanor also joined us.they said it's all know for their fashion and beuty style.
Honestly,it was fantastic. This is the very first time i could say i had fun and im happy.

But when i get so happy something bad happens or ruined it.

I am now in my bed staring at the ceiling blankly..

closing my eyes,remembering everything that happend in the past few years.

No!not like that!just seat there and let me do it!

stupid.

Your not beutiful!your ugly.

No one would dare to fuck you!

Piece of shit!

I could hear small and very familiar voices in my head,the people who always say that to me.

I stood up and headed to my comfort room,.
I sat at the toilet looking at the shinny,silver,pointed blade on my hand.

After staring at it for a while,i decided to draw.

Yes,draw.

I made a very straight and deep line on my wrisk.

And another,

And another,

And another.

Dark red Blood slowly came out of it..

I could feel my hands getting numb,my veins pumping,my heart beating fast.

I closed my eyes,feeling the darkness and silence enveloping me in a tight hug.

I opened my eyes and looked at my art work.it was a disaster.

It's the only thing that takes away the pain,atleast for a small period of time,I could feel the freedom and I could have a little sanity from the monsters that lives inside me.

Harry's p.o.v
Hey mate,what happened awhile ago?niall asked.

What do you mean?alot of things happened "awhile ago". I said.

Dont be like that!awhile ago,when chandria was here,you wouldnt be so mean to us,but you were.you never ever volunteer for anything,even when were all together.what happened awhile ago?niall asked while eating some chips.

I didnt responded.and think of what niall just said,it was really shocking,even me. I couldnt believe i volunteer to teach her.

I-i dont really know.i honestly said to niall,now in a more calmer tone.

He just shrugged.

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I am now in my black range rover,heading to stacey and chandria's flat.

I never really expect to come to charndria's house and in this time,I was planning to ditch her,but my I didnt.

i parked my my car infront of their flat..

will you go?you can still go away and ditch her. a small voice said to me.

but she's going to fail the exam and she would blame you..another small voice said to me.

but i dont care!i shouted.

ugh,good harry.who are you talking to?nice youre going insane..i said to myself.

after few minutes of thinking,i found myself infront of chandria's front door knocking.

after 3 knocks somebody opened the door.

first it was kinda akward,no one really talked.i think we're both shocked that I showed up here.

so,hi?i finally said,breaking the silence.

Uh,hi.she said looking down.

Why is she on sweater and pajamas?it's like 50 degrees here.

Are you cold?i ask her sarcasticly.

Pardon me?she said.

I said,are you cold?i said again.

I think she's too stupid to understand my sarcasm.i said to myself

Uh,what makes you say that?she asked.

It's like 50 degrees here,and your wearing a black sweater and pajamas.i point out.

Ah,um..would you like to come in?she changed the topic.

There's something weird with this girl,i could sense it.

Ugh,yeah obviously. I said in a annoyed voice.

S-sorry.she said while letting me in.

She's really weirding the hell out of me.

So,where is stacey?i asked while looking around,not much really change since I last time came here.

In her room doing stuff.she said in a low voice

Um,do you want something to eat? Or drink?she ask looking down at the floor.

Why does she always look down?is there something interesting with the floor??

Uh,no.im fine.i answered,trying my best not to be mean.

Well this really fucking awkward.

Author's p.o.v
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