Strings Of Fate

Chapter 1 - The Notebook

I promised to myself that I would never, ever get involve in a relationship today. Not today. It can wait.

• Cayenne
I don't care. I have a lot things to do.

• Aries
I'll find you wherever you are tomorrow. We will have a date. See yah! :)

Bigla siyang nag offline nang magta-type pa lang ako.

Hay. Not again. I want him to stop loving me but I can't stop him.

What is so special about me?

Beautiful? I am not beautiful!

I am a trash and I'm not worthy of everything. I am a broken vase that cannot be fixed. I am a bad daughter and I have a rotten character.

What is so damn special about that?

Nevermind. I'll continue what I am doing right now. I have to focus. Because if I don't, I'll ruin my life again.

I'll do the same mistakes again.

07/14
Someone stole my notebook today. I'm sorry I'm so careless. I'll be taking care of you from now on. I will keep an eye on you like a mother to her child. You're the only one I have, so I need to take care of you. I'm really sorry.

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"Caye... will you be mine again?" I heard a voice... a familiar voice. "Please? Be my girl again."

What is this place? I am out of nowhere!

"Cayenne, come here. You'll be safe." The person speaks again.

"Who are you?" My trembling voice came out of my mouth.

"Don't you know me? I am your lover, Caye. Don't you ever forget about me." His voice is getting terrible.

I run as fast as I could, I don't care where I will run. I don't care anymore.

"Don't run away, Caye. I will chase you."

I can't run! It was like a slow motion. No matter how I run, it's getting tiring.

Slowly... slowly he reached my arm. His face was in front of me, I can't explain enough the features. But it is all bloody, a face with no eyes, no nose, not even an ear.

What species is this? Is it a monster? A monster is only child fantasies!

So what is this?

I'm scared. This is horrible. It creeps me out. Seriously, I am trembling.

Someone? Help me!

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I opened my eyes. I looked at my phone, it's already 8am.

I fell asleep while working on my drawing.

It's a strange dream. Really a strange dream.

What the heck is that?

I feel weary, at the same time I feel tired.

I never wanted to see that dream again. Oh god. Is that Aries? Is he really serious about it?

I hurt him, I did wrong, I messed up our both lives.

Why he was so desperate to come back?

Aren't he tired of me?

I'm not really interested. Seriously. It only gives stress.

But why?

Even if in my dreams? This is seriously distressing.