Strings Of Fate

Chapter 1 - The Notebook

*ting!* (Kunwari tunog ng messenger)

What now?

• Aries
Hey.

Aries? Bakit kaya napachat siya?

• Cayenne
Ow?

• Aries
Kamusta? :)

He's my first love and he's my first heart break. Pero bata pa kami noon. I don't know why he keeps coming back to me kahit na nagkaroon ako ng mga past relationships before. I'm having a commitment but I don't answer them. I'm still NBSB. Why? Kasi gusto ko yung lalaking sasagutin ko, siya na rin yung pakakasalan ko. So puro MU lang ako, like getting-to-know each other stage. Pero it all failed kasi they are all the same. Hindi sila nagtatagal sa akin. I think there's something wrong with me but I don't need to worry because I don't have a time for this.

But then...

Kumusta na nga ba ako? Masasabi ko bang okay ako? Masasabi ko bang ayos lang takbo ng buhay ko?

• Cayenne
The same as before. How about you?

• Aries
Here, having a good time. :) Its been a long time since last na nagkachat tayo. Did you miss me? *smirk*

What the heck. How can I finish this drawing?

• Cayenne
I never missed you as$$#@|3.

• Aries
Oh, really? Well I missed you and I love you so much until now.

Parang may tumama na kung anong bagay sa puso ko. I felt sad and guilt and at the same time I felt I need to ignore him.

I felt sad and guilt because he said he would never leave me but then I keep finding someone who'll fulfill my heart but it all failed. Nandyan naman siya nang mahabang panahon pero hindi ko naman pinansin kasi mas naghanap ako ng better sa kaniya. But in reality, no one is better. The cycle is always the same in relationship. Strangers, getting to know each other, inlove, then gets into a relationship and after many years of relationship someone will realize they are not meant to be for each other so they thought if they will find someone better then their life will be happier. But the truth is, you cannot find someone better. You, yourself, need to be better before finding someone. I told you, it's always the same cycle. That's why I've come to realize, in order to get into a real relationship, both person should be matured enough to get involve into commitment. Yes, a person in a relationship should be responsible for his/her partner that he/she will accept their partner's flaws no matter what. What is the purpose of relationship? What is the purpose why you fell inlove? It's because you wanted to marry them and make a family. Relationship is a serious thing, yet many of kids nowadays make fun of it. I don't know why. It's like, they thought they would be happy for the rest of their lives for having a temporary relationship. But seriously it's not.

Wake up to reality, people. Because when I woke up, it's too late.

And that was part of the biggest mistake I've ever made in my life. I should've done a thing. But since we are curious in everything, we'll be involve in that kind of relationship. So, it made a scar, in my heart. And that mistake, should be learned from now on.