I guess we'll never know: Kailan ko masasabi?

I guess he'll never know.

Prologue

 (Song plays here. Basahin nyo rin ung tagalog lyrics nung kanta. Para mas dramatic. :D)

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He smiled his thuggish- annoying- yet- very- adorable smile. “Scythe, palibre.”

“Tae mo.”

“Dali na.”

Umalis sina Tonette at Leesh. “Bibili lang kami dun ha?”

Sabi nya, “ Scythe, dali. Palibre.

“Sabihin mo na kasi kung anong gusto mo!”

“Siomai.”

“Haynako, Enzo” Ireached for my wallet and held a 2o peso bill to him. “Oh. Bente.”

He smiled triumphantly “Yey. Nilibre mo din sila?”

“Hindi. Ikaw lang.”

“Bakit?”Tinitigan nya ko. It was like his eyes were boring into mine. Like it was searching for something: Answers. He wanted me to say something, pero hindi ko alam kung ano.  Deeper meanings.

I shrugged instinctively.

Sa loob ng halos 8 months, my heart skipped a beat.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I’ve been asking myself the same question for almost two years.

It was simple question, yet I couldn’t bring myself to answer it. Anong gusto nyang isagot ko? I dunno. I mean, Lagi ko naming ginagawa un ah. Treat him out, make his stuff, lend him my stuff, copy my notes, copy my tests and most of all, I opened myself to him as he did the same. There are things in this world that nobody knows about me and there are things that nobody knows about him. But those things are what we both know now. It was like we took comfort with each other, hindi physical comfort, but companionship. Dalawa lang ang klase naming together, but it didn’t matter. May oras kami to communicate, to atleast whine with stuff to each other, harassin ang isa’t isa, hit each other, bite on each other’s skin, (Yep. Totoo to.) tease each other and laugh together. Routine na naming un eh, and I’m striving to continue with it.

Pero baka ung simpleng sagot sa simpleng tanong na yon ang sumira sa lahat ng pinaghirapan ko ng halos dalawang taon.

 

We got close with each other on our Senior year in HS kahit matagal na kaming magkaklase. Walang gusting umupo sa tabi nya since he’s a notorious mass assaulter (Exaggerating makes things more exciting. But trust me, he’s ALMOST like that.) He’s so straightforward that he really gets on people’s nerves. That’s why nobody wants to sit with him. That’s why both ng upuan sa left and right nya are empty. That’s why he’s alone. That’s why I approached him. (Bukod pa ung rason na stupidity ko, lack of awareness, being an insufferable martyr not to mention an annoying know-it-all pero kunwari hindi nyo na nabasa yon. :p)