I feel so alone. I feel forgotten. I feel unneeded now. This has been my worst year of high school. Everything's changing and I really can't keep up. I miss last year so much. I miss not being terrified. Everything seems like the eighth grade again. I was so alone and so insecure and I had been at the lowest point of my life. I'm terrified of that occurring again.
I feel like going into an eternal sleep or moving somewhere new; starting over again sounds so nice. There's very little that still keeps me excited but I've lost all motivation.
I have a bad headache writing this right now. It's adding on to my shitty mood. I haven't had true plans with friends since July and it makes me upset to an extent. I just miss them.
It's just been a rough year and I said 2015 would be my year but here I am trying to figure out what I want to do and stress eating my life away. I miss not doubting everything and being terrified. I'm praying the new year will be better but I highly doubt it will change if I don't work for it. I don't want to try anymore though. I'll figure out something though. I always do.
-lonely stranger
