Poetry Sessions

The "No Entry" Sign

I'm deeply afraid that it will come to this moment
Dreaming about that place one time where we secretly went
I tried to erase you on my mind and make certain excuses
That you and I will turn out to be a complete mess

I sometimes want to slap myself for wanting to look pretty in front of you
Hearing those lovely remarks make me giddy but you don't have a single clue
I hate the fact that I would wear uncomfortable clothes so that you would notice me
All those efforts and misery, I hope you would finally see

It seems that I want to avoid you the first time I saw your face
You're just trouble and boy, those girls would love to gaze
I didn't understand before why would they make a big deal
But after years of knowing you, I know that it isn't just your appeal

I still remember how you held your hand out to help me
That touch brought millions of shock to my body
I would also recall that one time when you called for company
I couldn't come though I wanted to rush beside you so badly

I love hearing that stupid nickname coming from you
And when you texted me what's wrong when I had a flu
Those moments after driving me home when I would secretly smile
Remembering the time we hang out after our group study for awhile

My cheeks would flush when I recalled the time when I'm sitting on your lap
Both embarrassment and glee mixed together in that mishap
You probably don't know my heart that time was beating so fast
You were holding my waist and I kept on wishing that moment would last

I sometimes hate you for being a jerk and teasing me often
But then you're the kind of guy who would be always there to listen
How I wish for the day that you would come to like me
The way my heart beats for you not just how you treat everybody

You're like a "No Entry" sign in a treacherous path
Will I risk our beautiful friendship and accept your wrath?
Will you come and join me along that reckless journey?
Or will I just stay back and look at you silently?