Poetry Sessions

The Key To My Heart

What is this strange and disturbing feeling that occurs within me?
Should I give it a chance or give up already?
Afraid of the past things that happened before
Bitter memories that cuts me to the core

You brought light into my life, just so you know
But whenever I saw you, my intuition is to run and go
I don't know what to do whenever I face you
We're extremely good friends and you don't have a single clue

Sorry but I don't have the guts to tell you what I feel
Even if you told me you like me seriously since it's just surreal
But I'm just thinking of the consequences that will happen
My past experiences taught me to be careful of what I'm doin'

I sometimes wonder whether to give you the key to my heart or not
But should I know you better and see what you've got?
Because you might contribute an addition into my mountain of regrets
That I want to badly get rid of, just like any other pests

Somehow, hiding this feeling actually and deeply hurts me
I just don't know if I could let you go and set you free
But there's a part of me that tells me it's better this way
Right now all I want to do is sit down , close my eyes and pray

I'm glad that you're a wonderful pal to me
But should I be sad because that's all we'll ever be?
I just hope I could finally found the right answers someday
Just remember I'll think of you always 'til the day turns gray

This poem is written especially for you
You probably don't know this, but my feelings for you are true
I'm wishful thinking that someday you can fully understand me
Before it's too late of showing you what I really wanted you to see