Behind it all | Jadine

Tragic

~ Nadine 

Lately, it has been so hectic. It has been very very toxic. These past few days, away-bati kami ni James. I guess it's because of the pressure that people especially the media puts on us. Nakakapagod man, pero we have to do this. Eto yung bumubuhay sa'min and at the same time, this is our passion. But I have to admit, it gets exhausting sometimes. 

*sighs* 

Yassi: "Oh anong problema?" 

I forgot to  mention, I'm with Yassi, Andre and James along with my family. We're on our way back to Manila na, at andito kami sa Mactan International Airport waiting for our flight to board. 

Nadine: "Wala lang, pagod lang 'to" 

Yassi: *sighs* "No, spill it" 

Nadine: "What if one day, may isa sa'min mag give up?" 

Yassi: arched one eyebrow "You're overthinking Nadz, of course that wont happen. James is the least that I know na mag give up sa relationship niyo. Baka ikaw?" 

Nadine: "hindi.. kasi-"

Yassi: "What's with all the thoughts Nadz? May nangyari ba?" 

Nadine: *shook her head* "Its just that, these days, palagi kaming nagtatalo. He has been to tight. Nasasakal na ako." 

Yassi: "Nadz, alam mo naman si James diba? He's super overprotective when it comes to you" *smiles* "I find it cute, tsaka, ang swerte niyo na sa isa't-isa." 

Nadine: *sighs* "I think you're right. Pagod lang 'to" 

Yassi nodded at binaling ulit ang attention niya sa kanyang iphone.  I shifted my head on the other side where James was sleeping with his earphones plugged into his ears. 

Ano bang nangyayari sa'tin Hayme? 

~ 

Two days after our Cebu tour, it was the most hectic week we had. Shooting dito, photoshoot doon, another shooting for the movie, tours, interviews, guesting. Mababaliw na ako. And anytime mahuhulog na ang mata ko. 

Direk: "Sige it's a wrap!" 

it's 4 am in the morning at kakatapos lang nang taping for otwol. Pero, after this, may taping pa kami for the movie. 6 am ang call time. Kaya instead na umuwi na kami, we headed to the location for the "Beauty and the bestie" sobang pagod na talaga ako. 

James: "Wifey, okay ka lang?" 

I opened my eyes and smiled at him. 

James: "Huwag ka nang matulog, it's so hard waking you up" 

Nadine: *rolls her eyes* "kahit 5 minutes lang?" 

James: *sighs* "We're almost there, huwag na" 

Eto yung problema ko eh, lahat nalang siya ang nasusunod. Siya dapat. Nasasakal na ako paminsan minsa, but I do get his point. I think his decisions are for the best. 

~ 

After the movie shoot, dumiresto na kami sa Movie poster photoshoot, I feel so drained and dead  tired. But I have to keep myself alive kasi mamaya, we promised Andre and Yassi that we'll be there to support them, siningit namin ang premier night nang "Wang Fam" for our schedule today, we couldn't miss it for the world. Andre and Yassi were always present sa lahat nang premier nights namin, so we should payback. 

"oh next layout na" the photographer said. Napahawak ako sa ulo ko, my head was aching like hell! Hindi ko alam bakit, but I guess it's because of lack of sleep and I haven't ate lunch as well.