One More Night? (EgoBang)

Chapter 11: What The Hell Is Wrong With Me?!

I hope you all know, that why I put the lyrics to this song in here so much, I'm actually just running out of stuff to type and I'm sorry if it's getting annoying.

Danny's POV:

I slammed my head against the wall for the 560th time. "What the hell is wrong with me," I said to myself. I had the opportunity right at my fingertips and I let it go. I don't know why I was so mad. No, I wasn't mad, I was... I was..... I don't know what the fuck I was. All I know is that I blew it. I blew my one chance to get Arin back right out the window.

I knew of only one thing that could make me feel even the slightest bit better. I grabbed my phone off the floor next to me and went to my music. I scrolled through all of my songs until I found the one I was looking for. I had forgotten about this until just now. It was a recording of Arin and I singing our song, You're Beautiful by Onision. I pressed play and sang along with Arin's beautiful voice.

I once met this boy, he's as handsome as can be.

I told him he was beautiful, But he didn't believe me.

Frustration consumed me,

How could he not see?

Despite the perfection I perceived,

He sees inadequacy.

See, society has taught him to hate the skin he's in.

To compare himself to billboards,

To starve until he's thin.

But even if he made it,

Ignored his hunger pain.

Would he finally feel at peace,

Or would his sorrow remain?

Rejection, like an infection,

Breeding victims of disaffection.

So, pardon my interjection,

But we must go a new direction.

This isn't natural selection,

Rather a warped projection.

People don't need your objection,

They deserve uninfluenced introspection.

I once met this boy, he's as handsome as can be.

I told him he was beautiful, But he didn't believe me.

Frustration consumed me,

How could he not see?

Despite the perfection I perceived,

He sees inadequacy.

Shallow words from shallow guys,

Cause pretty girls with tainted eyes.

Forced to believe their twisted lies,

In every mirror, inside he dies.

He cannot feel the love I send, despite my honest heart's intent.

I drown him in these compliments,

Yet somehow he still circumvents.

Forget the American dream,

It will destroy your self esteem.

Happy lives need no extreme,

Beauty isn't what they deem.

You are perfect to the seam,

Don't deny you love ice cream.

If you're proud let me hear you scream,

As we burn their magazines.

I once met this boy, he's as handsome as can be.

I told him he was beautiful, But he didn't believe me.

Frustration consumed me,

How could he not see?

Despite the perfection I perceived,

He sees inadequacy.

All that truly matters are those who truly care.

The opinions of the masses,

Is neither relevant nor fair.

So believe what I say, and find happiness once more.

You're beautiful, you're perfect,

Of that you can be sure.

I once met this boy, he's as handsome as can be.

I told him he was beautiful, But he didn't believe me.

Frustration consumed me,

How could he not see?

Despite the perfection I perceived,

He sees inadequacy.

What he doesn't realize, a point he surely missed.

If you're a truly kind person,

Ugliness does not exist.

You could throw away your make-up,

This you should not doubt.

If you are beautiful within,

You are beautiful without.

The song faded out and my tears had worsened. I played the song again and again, until my phone died. I sighed as the darkness of my apartment closed in on my again and I couldn't help wonder what Arin was doing right now...