"Honey, you need to get some sleep", my night nurse said.
She really doesn't understand...I have a lot going on inside of me. Not just the cancer, but thoughts and memories. Yesterday was a horrific day, and so much happened that was out of every one's control; including my own. If I hadn't suggested the trip in the first place none of this ever would've happened Joshua is dead, and it is my fault. He got shot for having a fun day away from reality. Donna, Kristi, and Nurse Kate are still missing. A child's hand was found today, and tests were run. Test's revealed that the hand belongs to Kristi. I can't believe that this is happening to us; the children hospitalized here, the doctor's and nurses, and many of the people in our local community. No one really knows what to say or think about what happened. Things like this just don't happen in our community. It's something that happens other places, not here. It's something that you hear about on the news and read in books. It's not something that happens in our community, in our backyards.
