Don't, change for me ( a Bamon love story )

Find Her

-Damon 

Elena has forgoton all about me but to be honest that is not whats on my mind. I've been up all night looking through all the grimwoirs i could find i need to find a way to get her out of there 

"stupid bonnie, why did you have to be all noble and sacrifice yourself you dumbass!" i yelled throwing a book across the room breaking a window

"Damon sit your ass down and have a burbon, your more hostile than before you left " caroline said 

" im sorry if im a little pissed that bonnie forced me to leave her there with a certified psychopath  who might i add killed almost all his siblings and cut his twin sisters  spleen out and not to mention he can pull the magic out of other witches so sorry im afraid that she might be dead before i get her back " i said not realizing the tears falling from my eyes 

i quickly wiped my face " its my fault she is still there she sacrificed her life for me and i couldnt save her "

" we'll get her back damon i promise" she said 

" but for now you need to chill go feed and go get some air i will take over   looking for clues go talk to stefan or at least talk to jeremy hes been acting out lately "

"what do you mean acting out? "

-Jeremy 

she was kissing me while siting on the pool  table and clawing at my hair but it didnt feel the same the girl was kissing wasnt bonnie, i was half drunk ,and bonnie chose to lie and die for me she was too selfless for her own good and at the same time selfish she didnt once think about how it would effect me once she decided to die instead of trying to live for me her family and friends.

i was suddenly ripped off of the girl and thrown into a wall by damon and the girl was compelled   to leave 

" hey asshole what did you do that for? "

" newsflash baby gilbert you have a girlfriend "

" no i don't i lost my girlfriend the day she chose death over me "

he pinned me to the wall by my neck 

" she spent most nights crying because she missed you, she would talk in her sleep about you and regret that she made that decision. She did it for everyone so that they wouldn't worry especially you, because she knew that there was no coming back. I will be damned if i don't save her because she was selfless enough to save me first, it was a dumb move but she was important to me too she leaves and and you completely go out of your mind instead of finding a way to find her? She deserves better than you!" he yelled and sped out of the house 

hes right she dose deserve better,which is why im going to leave her with him he obviously cares a shit lot more than i do.

i ran upstairs and started to pack leaving a note for matt and drove to the airport 

-Damon

" looks like you need a drink damon "rick said 

" yeah especially that my bestfriend is stuck in a prison world with a phyco and my girlfriend dosnt even remember that she loved me and on top of that i found out that jeremy has been sleeping around since bonnie left  so i think ill take that drink "

"i thought i was your best friend " he said

" i cant have too best friends?" i said 

" no but its clear you do care about bonnie " he said 

" i just want her to be safe and happy, and i swear when i get my hands on kai im gonna rip out his heart and shove it down his throat" i said smiling into my drink 

i had gone to my room and took out my phone and called bonnie and it went straight to voice mail

" hey bonnie i payed your phone bill so i can leave you mesages i just wanted to let you know that what you did was stupid we were suposed to leave together but now im here, your not, elena dosnt remember me, and jeremy has lost his mind and all i can think of is how im going to get you home safely. please be safe bonnie be strong if any thing were to happen to you it would be my fault and there is no other side so i cant bring you back please please be ok " i said and hung up my phone 

i dont matter what matters is how im going to get bonnie back