Don't, change for me ( a Bamon love story )

My own personal hell

—Damon's POV
" Damon?! Damon!! Are you going to answer my question?!" Bonnie asked snapping me out of my thoughts

" yes Bonnie I will answer your question, but don't say I did not tell you first that the things I did back then were out of spite and I payed for it in five long years of torture " I said

" what? Why would someone torture you" she said worry in her eyes

" let's just say that a certain group of people liked to play operation on vampires for their own personal research " I said

" oh I'm sorry Damon " she said you won't be after I tell you what happened now sit down " I said

" I went home to the boarding house, which actually housed people at the time, to see Stefan and start being a family and stop being so violent all the time I was actually on the bunny diet for a little while. Then I got into a tiff with Stefan and Zach and at the sun eclipse party they were having I killed everyone that was there including Zach's girlfriend....... Who was six months pregnant at the time. That is why this is hell for me ............ This is my own personal hell and your in it with me " I said

And with that I took my drink and started to leave the room giving Bonnie her thoughts

" but that was the old you Damon," she said walking in front of me

" your not that person anymore your different you care about your friends and family just like they care about you....just like I care about you " she said and wrapped her arms around me in a comforting hug

I was in fact taken aback by this but I hugged back

" thank you Bonnie " I said and pulled away and kissed her forehead

I began to walk to my room again when she stopped me

" what is it now " I grinned

She took my drink out of my hand and swallowed the whole thing down and put the cup on the table

" now go to bed, oh but first I found this camera I thought we could do something with it " she said and handed it to me

" thanks Bon bon " I said

" now bed Damon you have had a long day sleep ok, plus we gotta make a way out of this hell hole " she said

And I went to bed but first I made a little recording

" hello to whoever finds this know that we are not dead you just think we are Bonnie and I are stuck in a limbo of sorts and I thought this was my hell because of something I did that I regret but Bonnie convinced me otherwise she is a good friend she hasn't left even though at time I gave her reason to she is determined to get me back to Elena and so am I .... I just hope that nothing happens to keep us from getting back " I said and closed the camera and went to bed

I don't think I would be living if Bonnie wasn't here

Thank you Bonnie