My name is Ludwig Beilschmidt. When I was eight, I was diagnosed with cystic fibrosis. A disease in which your lungs fill with mucus to the point where you stop breathing. It's hard to explain the feeling, however; explaining what's it like to drown is a hard concept to grasp.
I never had much of a childhood, I was always bedridden. I never got to play with the other kids. The doctors were just so worried that I would collapse, and stop breathing. Because that had happened before. So I'm bad at social interaction. All I ever wanted to do was see the world, have friends....fall in lov-AND yet I'm trapped in and out of the hospital. In an endless cycle.
I may never see the world because there's not much treatment for the disease, and for my stage. The only thing that can really save my life is a lung transplant.... I've been on the list
since my 10th birthday.... I'm 20 now, and the only thing keeping me alive is machines, wires and pure will. When I was 14 my life changed and I almost gave up on living. Even now I wonder, the fibrosis is spreading; should have I just died when I could. Now I have too much to lose.... I lost my chance.That's a story for later.
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Learning to breath again. ( on hold!!)
RandomAfter being diagnosed with cystic fibrosis at the age of 8, every thing goes down hill for Ludwig. Soon his depression after the loss of some family, becomes more deadly the the condition he has been living with. Will he survive and be happy? Or die...