The Walking Dead [Daryl Dixon]

Chapter 48- Pain, Anger

~Daryl's P.O.V.~

I was happy I was back but now Carol is missing. Something always has to happen. Michonne approached me

"You okay?" She asked

I nodded

"Listen there's something I have to tell you"

I looked at her, she had my full attention

"The other night, Haley had been out all night. The next morning when we were burying Bob she came back. She just said she needed to clear her head. I noticed blood on her shirt. She just said she killed a walker. But when they were putting Bob in the grave I stared at her shirt, and blood was staining on. Fresh blood. So I pieced it together, she was out all night. Came back with a fresh wound on her stomach still bleeding through her shirt"

All this was stunning me. No way it didn't sound like Haley

"Was she trying to?" I asked

Michonne nodded "I think so"

I looked at the door and angrily walked to it and opened the doors to see Haley sitting on the stairs

"What the hell were ya thinking?!" I almost yelled

She turned around but didn't stand up "What are you talking about?"

"You tried to kill yourself?! Are you insane?!" I raised my voice this time yelling

Her eyes widen and she stood up "Daryl I"

The rage still went throughout my body. Why would she even try to do that

She was leaning on the stairs rail to help her stand "Let me explain"

"We've been away further, and it was just one day yesterday and you tried to kill yourself! Why?"

Tears were starting to emerge her eyes and I wanted to but I held them back

"That's not exactly what I was trying to do" She said softly

I took one step closer to her "What did you do?"

Gabriel had come by from the back with organ pipes we were going to put around the front. Once he saw the rage in my eyes he slowly backed up and walking away. She thought for a second

"What did you have?" I asked once again with just as much rage in my voice before

"A knife"

She knew not to lie to me. Not to make things worse

She looked down "I sat all night, thinking. Then once the sun came up I held the knife to my stomach" She almost choked on her tears. Hell I just wanted to hold her. But I was too angry

I looked down at her stomach and noticed the dry blood. I picked up her shirt halfway and my eyes widen when I saw the wound. It looked infected, not taken care off. Which only made me even more angry "What stopped you?"

She sniffed still not looking at me

"Look at me. Haley" I demanded

She slowly looked up at me "It wasn't so deep in. But there was a walker coming straight to me"

"Otherwise if there was no walker you would've gone deeper. And you would've killed yourself" I said

Her eyes were weeping "I just don't understand. Haley you don't understand, how much you mean to me. How much I need you, I can't live without you Haley. How the hell can you be so selfish" I figuratively spite at her

I turned around and walked inside. Minutes later I took out some organ pipes outside and saw Gabriel standing on the ground

"Are you gonna take the cross too?" He asked

I walked down the steps and placed the pipes down and picked one up to put on the ground

"If we need it" I scolded still upset from earlier. Once I put it in the ground I looked around but no Haley. I hope she's not off somewhere doing something stupid

"Do you want to talk about it?" Gabriel asked me

I knew he was referring to me and Haley's fight earlier. I just gave him a look and didn't respond. I continued to put the pipes in the ground while Gabriel watched in silence

~Haley's P.O.V.~

As soon as everyone was done boarding up around the church they got bags ready. I was sitting on a chair. Rick said goodbye to Judith and hugged Carl

"We will be back soon" He said

I looked at Daryl and he glared at me before Rick, Daryl, Tyreese, Sasha and Noah left to Atlanta. Michonne and Carl finished boarding the windows and Gabriel began to scrub the floor. He was scrubbing blood. I sat on a rocking chair with Judith and fed her. I still thought about Daryl. How much he yelled at me. I've never seen him that angry before. I didn't think about the whole suicide till afterwards. I laid Judith down on her bed and I ate some food we had. Later that night Gabriel was sleeping while Carl was with Judith. I hopped over to Michonne who was sitting in front of the doors just staring at them. With her sword in front of her. I sat down next to her on the chair

"Why did you do it?" I asked

She turned to look at me

"You told Daryl about what I did or tried to do that night"

She sighed "Haley I had to"

"Why?"

"Because, Haley why would you try to do that? Kill yourself"

"It wasn't like that. At first.."

"Hales" She softened

"I was sitting all night just thinking. Then in the morning I was in the same position. I thought what's the point of me being here? If I'm just gonna slow everyone down. Plus I'm useless, with this broken foot"

"I didn't know you felt that way. Why didn't you say anything?" Michonne asked

"I didn't want to seem like I wanted attention. I stabbed myself but not too deep. I would've gone all the way but I noticed a walker coming straight to me. Guess you can say she saved my life" I sniffed

Michonne stayed silent

"But the way Daryl yelled at me. He didn't let me explain fully"

"Haley, it's gonna be okay. Your not slowing us down. As long as we're here your foots gonna heal. We're all gonna be okay"

I nodded and stood up "I hope your right"

She nodded "I know I am"

I slightly smiled and used the long chairs to help me walk. At one moment I felt dizzy, weird. I felt a sharp pain on my stomach. I clinched it and let out a yelp before I hit the ground and passed out.