L I L L Y
"Do I wanna know?"
The thought of Luke only wanting to use me as a hook up was the only thing on my mind.
I thought..well I didn't exactly know what I thought, but never would I have guessed that he was that type of guy.
Yeah, we'd only encountered each other twice, but both times he made me feel a way that no one had ever made me feel before. The way he spoke to me, the way he whispered those words, the way his lips felt against my skin..
But I couldn't allow myself to feel this way, I needed to stay away from him; I wasn't going to let myself fall for someone like Luke.
Because if I did, in the end, he'd hook up with me and get over me in a matter of seconds. But me? It'd take me forever to get over the amazingly handsome blond boy.
"You're thinking about him again, aren't you?" Ana sighed, pausing the current rerun of The vampire diaries that we were watching.
"It's hard to just up and stop thinking about him, Ana." I sighed, adverting my gaze towards the floor.
"I just want what's best for you, Lil. I don't want to see you get hurt, especially if someone like Luke is involved." She said.
I already knew that. She'd told me at least twenty times just how much of a player he is, giving me various examples of rumours she'd heart.
I didn't want to hear it, in fact, it was the last thing I wanted to hear. He acted so casual, yet I was always a stuttering mess whenever he approached me. It had only yet happened twice, but still.
Why did I feel like he was so important? I didn't even know him, but still, he was the one playing on my mind every hour of both days since we'd first met.
"Can we just, not talk about it?" I sighed, pulling the duvet over my body, snuggling underneath in order to feel the warmth.
"Sure, I need to get going anyway, my mum wants me to go shopping." Ana stated, a disgusted look covering her face.
"What's with the face? You love shopping." I chuckled.
"Yeah, but not with my mother." She laughed, making me role my eyes sarcastically at my best friend.
"Call me if you need anything, yeah?" She smiled, hugging me tightly before grabbing her phone off of the nightstand.
"I will, I'll see you tomorrow." I smiled, getting out of bed in order to go downstairs and show Ana out.
I made my way down the stairs with Ana by my side, waving goodbye with a slight smile on my face as she walked out of the front door.
I turned back around and sighed, leaning my body against the closed door. What was I going to do? I couldn't deny that there wasn't something I felt towards Luke, because there was something.
I decided to head back upstairs and take a shower, hoping that I'td make me feel at least a little bit better. Because I was feeling like absolute crap at the moment, not even denying it.
I headed up the stairs and into my bathroom, grabbing some black pyjama shorts with an oversized white t-shirt out of the draw.
I left my pyjamas on the counter and stepped into the shower, switching the water on at a high temperature.
I stood in the shower, the feeling of the water against my skin relaxed me instantly. The majority of the time I just stood there, letting the hot water relax my body.
