K-pop fanfictions

Taehyung: Life is so short

(A/n): this is angst at first but turns to smut

It was a rainy evening. I sat on my couch and thought about my life.
I have nobody.
Everyone left me.
When i was little my mom and dad died in a car accident.
My granny took me and but she died one year ago.
I'm living alone.
No friends.
No family.
Nothing.
Only this apartment is left.
I had best friend Kim Taehyung... But he left me 'cause he fell in love with another girl.
It has been 2 moths since he talked to me last time.
Last words he said were:
" I'm sorry (y/n), i love you but i love her more, i'll comeback to you someday
I know that."
But i don't believe him.
That day won't ever come.
But i'm happy 'cause i know... He's happy and he is enjoying his life with that girl.
And...
I have a....
Cancer...
And.
I'm going to
DIE.
I didn't tell to Taehyung, because i don't want him to worry about me.
I'm not afraid of my death, I can say... Somethings I'll miss but I hope... The place I go will be better.
[...I fell asleep...or i cried myself asleep...like every night in these past few months...]
2 months later...
It's a new day... Not really.
Same s*** like yesterday and last week and 5 weeks ago...
But today school starts... After  4 months.
We had a "reading" holiday and now we have so many exams...
But damn... After these exams, I'm free.
I promised to myself.
If my thoughts aren't changed...
I can...
Kill myself.
Cause i don't want to die to these pains... I wan't to do it in my own way.
Then I'm free and I can fly and I don't feel any pain...
I have planned this since my diagnose, I got it a half year ago...
But when Taehyung left me, I got a better plan.
But first I have some things to do.
I have this list, some thing's in that are stupid but I haven't ever done those so I want to try them before I go.
I've been a good girl my whole life so now I want to be bad.
TO DO list.
1. Get so drunk that you don't remember anything anymore.
2. Go to Taehyungs girls house and throw somethings to her windows etc...
3. Get to detention.
4. Spend all your money.
5. W E E D.
6. Burn. Your. House.
7. Get a tattoo, saying:
Everyone dies,
Mine just came earlier.
8. End your school with good grades ( this isn't bad, but I wan't to make my parents to be proud of me )
9. S E X, lol I'm still a V I R G I N.
10. Write a letter to Taehyung and give it to him before you go.

Today is the day that I'll start that list
So today i'm going to do 1, 2, 4, 5 & maybe 9 if you know what i mean...
I get to my bus and went to the school...
Same faces, same stories, same shit and
Taehyung...
Damn.
He looks so good...
And I miss him.
I thought that I forgot him but N O.
Three hours went and I got my first exam ready, thank god I read so much...
I went to eat something to cafeteria.
And Taehyung was there, sitting, alone.
Damn I want to go there but NO, I can't, cause then... I'll fall for him...
And he'll broke my heart into a million pieces...again.
So.
I went sit to another table.
I ate but then.
I were looking at my phone.
And someone came there.
It was.
Taehyung.
[ DAMN FUCKING SHIT...I thought in my head.]
" So...(y/n), how are you?
I haven't seen you for ages!" he said while he smiled to me.
" Mmmm... I'm fine or actually i'm doing really good... I'm going to move somewhere else... This place isn't so good to me anymore" I said, but what the actual fuck, why I'm telling that to him...Really... Damn I'm stupid.
" O-ooh really? That's so cool." He said and smiled but I saw how his gaze changed...
He looked kinda sad.
" Yeah... You?" I asked nicely, but my heart was hurting so much cause I knew how he would say something about his little bitch...
"Mmmm... Just okay..." He answered.
" Good, I heard that you're coming to Hoseoks party?" I asked.
" Yeah... Are you?" He said and he were looking so surprised.
" Yeah, of course! This is our last year" I said while I gave a fake smile to him...
[Damn I'm so stupid... What is going on? I'm not myself]
" Sorry I have to go now" he said and left.
He was weird...
He wasn't the Taehyung I knew.
After that I left and went to the hospital.
'Cause I have to meet my doctor.