TW: SH
I relapsedddd :p
It wasn't like I was clean for a while, but it's annoying. I don't know.
I wasn't mad at myself or anything I just really missed cutting. And now as I type this my cuts are stinging like crazy and It's driving me insane.
Whatever, enough with the sad shit. I feel like nobody is seeing my profile, and I know it'll take me a while to grow, but I want oomfs. :(
I started school this week and I'm already so exhausted from it, I did so much fucking work today and I have to do it all over again tomorrow, like how do they expect us to keep us with this? School really doesn't feel like the privilege people love to call it.
I mean, obviously I'm grateful that I get to have an education, but these teachers are out to get me I swear. Teachers want me to see a bug and go "Wow, I wonder what kind of bug that is! I'll go figure it out and write an essay about it for fun!" Like who does that.
...My teachers, probably.
I used to admire teachers a lot, but now they're kinda... blah. Like no Ms. Johnson, I don't want to write ten pages on the different kinds of air. If I don't know how air works it isn't going to stop working.
People are always saying "Oh, enjoy your teenage years!" When there's literally no fucking time to enjoy them because you're buried under homework, schoolwork, college prep, and so much other shit. The moment I turned twelve (around a year ago) my dad has been forcing all this shit onto me that I'm not ready for and it's an insane amount of pressure. He wants me to prepare for the SATs, for fucks sake! I'm not even in high school yet! Let me live!
-Liam
