Give Me A Second Chance

"Wow" That was the first thought that entered my mind when I first saw her. She was, hands down, the most beautiful girl I ever laid eyes on. It took me quite some time even to form that thought. She had THE - MOST- BEAUTIFUL smile. Every time she would smile my breath would just get caught at my throat. When she smiled, her whole face would brighten and her eyes... they would just sparkle. Oh! And her eyes! I could just stare into them forever. Her eye color was as if caramel was being poured into chocolate. Weird explanation, I know. It was just so bright and deep and mesmerizing and yet so light. I could just write an essay about her eyes.

The first time I laid eyes on her, I also knew there is no way in hell someone as beautiful as her could end up with someone like me. Not because I was ugly or anything. I am good looking. Now, I sound cocky. I am a pretty good looking guy. I know because I have been told so. I am not one of those players either who can land any girl. Actually, that exactly is my problem. As good looking as I am, I am that shy. It is usually just starting troubles but by the time I have convinced myself to utter a word, the moment would have passed. I have lost all my crushes to this god- forsaken problem. What is funny is that to the people who do know me, I am a funny, out- going, fun guy! Ironic right?  So, basically with my inability to form sentences around people just met, the prospect of going out with anyone who I just met is next to impossible.

Which is probably why I am so amazed that in around the past 20 years I forgot to appreciate how beautiful she is. True that even today her smile has the same effect on me but the bigger truth is that she stopped smiling that special smile of hers, which I know is only for me, because I stopped giving her the reason to. She really aged gracefully. You wouldn't look at her and think 'She is the mother of four'.

The fact that so many years have passed and that I still can't get over how amazing she is, that's what keeps me going. The fact that someone so amazing and wonderful is a part of my life. She could have had anyone but she chose me. It made me feel great. Special really. I should be doing something right for her to have still stayed with me after so many years. Yet, I took her for granted. I stopped making her feel special. I stopped doing little things to make her smile. I should have lost her a long time back but still she hung around. What did she see in me. It's time to change that now. I am going to be better man. I am going to give my wife a reason to stay. I am going to change so that every time I look at her, I know that I fought to keep her in my life. Because, without her, I am nothing.

To me, she is more than just my wife, or the mother of my children. I just forgot. I forgot how much she meant to me, how much her laughter meant to me. Now, I know that if I didn't give her a reason to stay I would lose her forever. I am not ready for that. So, from now, I am on a mission. Mission to give my wife a reason to stay with me. Mission to make her smile that special smile for me. Mission to make up for being a jerk all these years.  

Right now, I don't exactly know what to do. I don't have a plan. But I will come up with something. Well, I kind of have to!

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Hey guys!!

Well, it is really my first time writing something for others to read so I don't know how great it will be. I have been reading stories on Wattpad for a really long time and it is only now I mustered th courage to write something. I hope you like it. I really will do my best. Please comment and if you have any suggestions please let me know :)

xoxo

kRuPa :)