I'm The Alpha

Chapter 21

I looked at my brother "They had adopted us, but I was your own sister like Trudy, then why did you treat me like dirt? He was no one to me then," I said pointing at Rett and saw him flinching, "But you were my own brother. Why did you encourage them? What had I done? What was my fault? That I was a human, not a shifter."

I closed my eyes and let the tears flow. "You know, when I complained about you to someone, she told me that you people are delusional, that you have a misapprehension about me." I said as I recalled the words moon goddess had told me and let out a small chuckle. "Funny, I could not understand what she meant then, but now... I can."

"I have not changed. This. Is. Me. I wanted to beat the crap out of you all even then but I didn't because I wasn't capable of that. You didn't know me then, you don't know me now. You never knew me, none of you all did." I turned to look at Jan who was also crying.

"Neither did Jan know me, but she accepted me for what I am. Loved me for what I am, without complaints. I had nothing when I met her. She gave me home, family, new friends." I smiled thinking about the days I had spent with Jan and June.

"I found family again; I got everyone, a mother, father, brother, sister and friends. All new people, I never knew before were caring and helping me when I wasn't even a wolf. They were there with me through good as well as bad times." I said recalling the way they tried to protect me from Felix and other rogues.

"Now you tell me mother, whom should I value the most?" I said wiping my wet cheeks and then walked out from that house.

'Come back soon.' Jan told me through the link and I paused and nodded at her.

I felt the waves hitting my feet. Mike was right; I had missed on meditation ever since I came here. I cannot lose control like that.

I threw my shrug on the shore and went for a swim.

I was now searching for a place to sit and meditate. There were few rocks in the ocean, but they were all close to the shore. Anyone who comes close to any of those rocks from their pack could see me.

Guess, there aren't any other. So I climbed one of the rocks and stood on it to look around. I could see the cliff above and decided to try diving from there. It was the same cliff where the goddess had cursed the Rykers. To my right there were thick woods. To my left, the sea and the shore.

I sat on a small layered rock between two huge rocks. It covered me from being visible to anyone if they stood on the shore, but if they were about to come swimming then they could see me.

I closed my eyes and kept my palms on either of my laps in a Gian mudra. After few minutes the noise around me started to fade one by one until I couldn't hear my own breathing.

I was standing in the same place where white moon flowers entwined the white pillar; but there were some new things- the floor was tiled complete white. I looked like I was in a hall. There was a door straight to me that led to a balcony which was open. It was in the other end of the room and I could see the stars in the sky.

The moon goddess was standing in the balcony with her back to me. Her hands were placed on the silver railing and like always I couldn't see her face. I saw her white gown and her long spine length black hair.

"I found my mate," I just blurted out.

"I know." I heard her saying.

"I know you know," I said simply.

"He is chosen as your mate because he is the only one capable of guarding you. He will protect you from everything, when you need protection." She told me.