A string of fate

30

"I don't know. I was just thinking about it."

I never really thought of myself getting married. It's not that I hate it. I just used of telling myself ever since that I don't want to get married and I don't want to have kids. Sa ilang taon kong nabubuhay ay lagi kong sinasabi 'yon. But now.. I don't know why I'm suddenly thinking of that idea. Funny because I'm not even in a relationship. It's not even my priority.

"You will surely get to experience it." Muli kong nilingon si Bri nang sabihin nya 'yon. "If ever you're wondering. Yes. You'll get married and you will be having kids. You might not be ready for anything right now but once it comes, I know for sure that whoever the lucky person is will not waste any time to marry you. You're the standard. Walang gustong sayangin ang tulad mo."

I lost words to say. I was just randomly thinking about it and I don't expect any words like what Bri said. And it did touch me. I'm in the middle of questioning myself and here he is.. making me feel more loved and valued.

"Thank you, Bri." Ngumiti ako sa kanya. He offered his hand at mabilis kong tinanggap 'yon. "I know you'll be happy to witness that moment." Sabi ko at marahan naman syang tumango.

"Of course. Ako man 'yon o hindi, I will be happy for you. That's for sure, Sey." Isang beses pang ngumiti sa akin si Bri. "You're weird. Ano pa bang iniisip mo?  You're always a random person." Pareho kaming natawa ni Bri. We just had a serious conversation and we both back with our usual self.

"I'm actually thinking of you getting a girlfriend soon." Biro ko at umiling naman sya.

"If that's your way to make me stop.. that won't work." Sabi nya at ngumisi pa sa akin. He's really not taking things seriously.

"It's not like that.."

"Kahit patigilin mo, hindi ako maghahanap ng iba. I'm good just like you.." Sabi nya at tinuloy nadin ang pagkain. I know he's telling the truth. "I'll do my best to win you back but I will not force you. You don't have to do anything but to at least let me. If you want me to stop, go do it. I won't listen. I will not stop.. until there's a valid reason to stop."

"I know you know when to stop.."

I know him well. We're in this kind of relationship where he's not asking for anything. I let him do his thing and I see how he put boundaries on himself. That's one of the things I like about him. No matter how much he wants to win me back, hindi nya ako pinipilit. Tulad ko ay hinahayaan nya lang ang nangyayari.

Lumipas ang ilang minuto at kung saan saan nadin napunta ang usapan namin ni Bri. I was really enjoying the time with him. We really vibe. We actually have different personalities pero nasasabayan namin ang isa't isa. I'm almost forgot that I'm three years older than him.