A string of fate

9

I was looking at Primo while he's busy with his computer. Kanina ko pa napapansin na mukhang wala sya sa mood. He's not in his usual self. Hindi ko na sya nakausap ulit after our huddle where we talked about the low score that the team received. I heard it's for him so I understand if he's affected by that. I saw our team leader talking to him as well.

It was our lunch when I realized that he's really not okay. Hindi sya sumabay kumain sa amin at hindi ko din alam kung nasaan sya. I asked kuya Randy about him but he said, just let him be alone for a while. Kaming dalawa lang ang magkasama nung oras na 'yon at tuluyan naming napag usapan si Primo.

"He's good. Kahit saan marunong sya. Kaya nga madaming umaasa kanya. And that brings pressure to him. Wala syang pakialam kung magkamali sya at pumalpak. Ayaw nya lang na may madadamay dahil sa kanya."

Tiningnan ko si kuya Randy habang sinasabi nya ang bagay na 'yon tungkol sa kaibigan namin. Kilala ko si Primo pero mas kilala sya ni kuya Randy dahil mas nauna din silang maging malapit. I was just added to their circle. Bukod pa doon ay mas naiintindihan nila ang isa't isa dahil pareho silang lalaki. There are things that they're able to get to share to each other.

"About the bad score. It's not Primo's fault but I understand if he felt bad. I heard our team didn't pass yesterday because of that late survey."

That make sense. He's probably thinking that it's really his fault where in fact it's not. And it's nothing for us. It's not that we don't care about our score but we understand how things work in a field like this. We can't control the survey that we're getting. There might be some opportunities to work on but we're not here to blame each other.

We came back from lunch at naabutan namin na nandoon na si Primo. He's talking to kuya Theo and I saw him smiling. Napangiti din ako at tuluyan ko nang naramdaman ulit ang presensya nya sa mga sumunod na oras na lumipas. We still haven't talked but it's fine. What important is I can feel him again.

I'm not really used seeing him not in his usual self. That was the first time it happened and you'll notice easily that there's something because he's not like that. He's a kind of person that will get your attention without him doing anything just because of his presence. At kapag hindi mo maramdaman 'yon ay talagang nakakapanibago.

Palabas na kami ng production nang masalubong namin si Dean na mag isa. Mahina akong siniko ni Lian at tiningnan din ako ng iba pa naming kasama. Talagang iniisip nila na may gusto ako kay Dean.

"Hey, Dean.." Binati ni Lian ang kaibigan nya at isang beses pa syang tumingin sa akin. "Tawag ka ni Seah. Nahihiya mag hi, e."

What?

Inasar nila ako at hindi ko naman alam kung paano magrereact. Tiningnan ko lang si Dean at nang ngumiti sya ay saka lang din ako ngumiti pabalik. I don't really want him to think that I like him pero hindi ko din naman alam kung paano itatanggi 'yon.

Sabay sabay kaming bumaba ng buong team at usapan padin si Dean. I already told them that I don't like him pero hindi nila 'yon pinapansin. They also said that I have chance. Hindi ko na masyadong inintindi. Bahala na sila kung anong gusto nilang isipin.