A string of fate

12

Successful ang opening ng bar ni Yohan. We celebrate the whole night and I'm one of those who got drunk. Hindi ko namalayan ang paglipas ng oras sa bar. I just woke up the next day with hangover. Carrie was beside me and she was a mess as well.

"Fuck that tequila."

Maya maya lang ay nagising nadin ang kaibigan ko. Mas lasing sya kumpara sa akin at nagtanong sya tungkol sa mga nangyari kagabi. I can barely remember it as well. I just remember how we enjoyed the night and Sam was the one who drove us home.

"Hindi na ako iinom ulit."

Nilingon ko si Carrie dahil sa sinabi nya at saka tuluyan nading bumangon. I look for my phone at nakita kong nahulog nalang 'yon sa floor kasama ang bag ko. I was literally drunk last night. I can't remember the last time I had a drink like that.

"But I remember something.." Saglit kong nilingon si Carrie habang binubuksan ang phone ko. I don't know if it's lowbat or what. "You were talking to someone over the phone last night. Sino 'yon?"

Natigilan ako nang marinig 'yon. My phone opened and I waited for it to load. "Me? Sinong kausap ko?" Tanong ko kay Carrie habang inaalala ang nangyari.

"I don't know? I just remembered that you pick up your phone habang palabas tayo ng bar. You were talking to someone before I passed out sa car ni Sam. I think I remember the name. Wait.." Tiningnan ko lang si Carrie habang inaalala nya din ang bagay na 'yon at hindi ko alam kung bakit bigla akong kinabahan. I'm starting to recall what happened. "Is it, Prince? Prim? I don't know."

Oh fuck.

Binalingan ko ng tingin ang phone ko and then there I saw messages from Primo. There's a lot. And I really did talk to him last night. Hindi ko alam kung paano natapos ang usapan namin. I just saw some of his messages that I wasn't able to answer anymore. May mga missed calls pa sya sa lahat ng account ko pero walang ni isa ang nasagot ko. I passed out.

Primo:

You're drunk. Hindi mo na naiintindihan ang mga sinasabi ko.

At least take a shower before you get to bed.

Let me know once you get home.

Hey?

Seah..

Mariin akong pumikit habang binabasa ang mga messages nya sa akin. Madami pa doon at kahit hindi ko na nasagot ay mukhang nakuha nyang bagsak na ako. The next messages are him updating me about his plan today.

"Was it your friend?"

Nagreply ako kay Primo at humingi din ng sorry. I don't know what we talked about last night but I'm sure I didn't say anything about my feelings. I was drunk but not too drunk to do stupid things. I mean.. I can admit my feelings but I don't want to do it that way. Not me being drunk.

"It's Primo. He's, uhm.." He's what, Seah? "He's my friend. Kasama ko sa trabaho." Sabi ko nalang pero nakita ko ang diretsong tingin sa akin ni Carrie. I'm telling the truth but I understand if she don't want to believe it. Kilalang kilala nya ako.