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~ TWENTY FIVE ~

If you bitch-made, we don't associate​

Show up at your birthday if you owe me cake​

With a black mask, that's how we exfoliate​

So pardon my way, my heart's in the way​

I follow my thoughts, ain't no logic in 'Ye​

Said that's all I'ma say, if he caught him a case​

Then send him to jail, like a dog in a cage​

I ain't feeling the age, no rottin' away​

Your dolphins are dazed, you calling away​

'Cause coffins is laid, under a tombstone​

'Cause even when you die, they still throwing rocks at your grave​

So follow the wave, can't swallow the hate​

My mind trumps anything that a scholar could say​

Don't know how to behave, we rage out of the raves​

Dislocate an arm, just pop it in place​

'Cause the damned, they ain't it​

All the pain and anguish​

Turned me into a man​

So I ain't complainin'​

Now these things is changin'​

No more lames is hanging​

No more fame in famous​

Ain't no shame in shaming​

She wanna give you the cookie, you Famous Amos​

She gave you the pussy, but you ain't pay for the anus​

Now your name is tainted, by the claims they paintin'​

The defendant is guilty, no one blames the plaintiff​

Gotta say it in Layman's terms, while you wait on arraignments​

'Cause if the jury say you did it, the payment is heinous​

Give me one minute, my lady just fainted​

My babies is crying, you understand what I'm sayin'?​

One minute, one minute, gone​
One minute and the next one's mine​

One minute, one minute, gone​
One minute and the next one's mine​

One minute, one minute, gone​
One minute and the next one's mine​

One minute, one minute, gone​
One minute and the next one's m-i-i-ine!​

Black man, black man​

Fake eyes, black man​

Fake eyes, black man​

Fake eyes, black man​

Fake, I want more!​

Fake eyes, fuck man​

One minute, one minute, gone​

One minute and the next one's mine​

One minute, one minute, gone​

One minute and the next one's mine​

One minute, one minute, gone​

One minute and the next one's mine​

One minute, one minute, gone​

One minute and the next one's​

After the song finished we pulled into the car park of the doctors. But honestly I can't believe I'm friends with people like Jah. I actually told him about my situation and he said that he was there for you no matter what. I love him for that.​

Walking into the doctors office we got hit with that smell. You know the classic hospital and dentist smell. I have no idea how to describe except chemicals.​

As we walk to the desk I feel Reese grabbing my hand told it slightly squeezing telling me that everything is going to be okay. "Hi I have an appointment at 11:20 for billie O'Connell"​

"ah yes O'Connell so you go in the elevator to the 3rd floor, go left to room 215B they should be waiting for you"​

"thank you have a good day"​

"You too"​

We walked off heading towards the elevator doing what she said. Going to the 3rd floor, turning left and walking till the room 215B. I knock on the door.​

"Come in"​

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"Okay so miss O'Connell now we have the information we need would you like a scan and photo?"​

"Yeah please"​

"Ok so can you lift up your shirt a little so I can put this gel just under your stomach"​

Lifting up my shirt she put the gel on my stomach and tan this devicey thing that spreading the gel.​

"Okay" she put her attention on the screen while rubbing the machine in a specific area "ah there it is" she turned the screen allowing me and Reese to see the little stink.​

"Okay so as far as I can see it's all healthy and strong for 12 weeks"​

She printed off a couple of copies of the baby and handed me a wipe to wipe off the excess gel and allowed me to pull my top back down.​

"Okay we will be in contact to book your next scan and put you into contact with a midwife. Have a good day miss O'Connell"​

"You too"​

We both left hand in hand with the scans.​

I know it probably means nothing but this is my baby and even though I have never met it, it still means everything to me. Wait how are you suppose to address a baby you don't know the gender of. I could use they, yeah they sounds better.​

We got back into the car. I put one of the photos in my phone case, one to Reese which she put in her wallet and then I have one to give to my parents or Finn if they accept it.​

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We pulled up to the arena for the second night out of three and I went straight in after waving to everyone. I'm too nervous to hide it in conversation and it doesn't help my tics are becoming more dominant.​

One of the staff members bring me to the room that they are all in and I walk in holding Reese's hand again.​

"Hi guys" I spoke up as they all looked up yet my voice shakes. "I umm me and Reese went to the doctors today and we saw the baby"​

The room went quiet and Reese pulled her hand away pulling out her wallet.​

"This is the baby. It was amazing like how developed it was already"​

"Eventhough we think your way too young and billie we do support you and I suppose it is cute" Finneas said reluctantly.​

"Alright now that's done I have a show to do and this is for you." They handed the photo back to Reese and I gave them one.​

I got dressed and stood on the side of the stage warming up as the starter was on.​

"Bil I understand that this is what you want to do and technically your free to do whatever you want for a couple more weeks but you can't be jumping and going as hard as you usually do. I know I said this when you broke your ankle and you ignored it but trust me you can't risk putting your babies health in danger"​

"Fine" I walk over to one of the bags I bring with me and put on the ankle brace so I can use it as an excuse. Maybe I will tell them today. We will see in the moment.