Wait a while

~ TWENTY FOUR ~

So it's a month later and touring today. I'm still not noticeable thankfully so I can carry on with the act a little longer but it's getting hard.​

I still haven't told anyone because it's my decision when to. I want to don't get me wrong but I tend to overthink the worse when it comes to people's reaction.​

Me and Reese have been getting closer to the point it's like we are dating but we aren't official. We have maybe made out a couple of times but I wouldn't let it go any further. I mean I would want to but I don't want it to get so far and then I tell her about my situation and she stops talking to me. I don't wanna get attached.​

Anyway I have to go to soundcheck. Hopping in my car I drive to the arena. Oh shit I haven't told you yet. I got a car. Her names is dragon and I love her almost as much as Reese.​

Look at her. Isn't she the sexiest car you've ever seen. (Your at gunpoint right now so you better say the right thing )​

Pulling up to the arena I see the normal amount of fans camping outside. I get into this thought of how if it weren't for them I would be doing some shit that I don't wanna do. Like working in Walmart but not that because I've always wanted to work there.​

I drive past the screaming fans beeping my horn a couple of times and waving as I pull into the underground car park. We only have to do one song which we didn't get time to do yesterday so that means I'll probably have time to go back outside to talk with them.​

Sorry sorry, I'm sorry sorry​
Sike bitch​

I yelled into the mic as the beat drops. "Yo on that part could you make the drop louder"​
They play it again with the adjustment that i said and it sounded so good.​

After we finish the song there is 5 hours until the show meaning as long as i take security i can go outside. Usually I wouldn't do this because you know of risk but in the next couple of months I'll be limited and they might not even support me once they hear the news.​

Walking outside the screaming erupts which eventually go a lot quieter thanks to J, the security guy. Walking on the other side of the barrier I stop and talk to most people and take photos with them. Most people asked about the rumours of me and my main security guard being an item (Reese). But like always i denied it saying how "the press are just trying to stir some shit up that ain't true".​

After a while we walked back inside and went the green room where everyone was at. As soon as I sit down on the sofa I can feel eyes on me like I have shit myself leaving a stain or something. I look back at them squinting my eyes one at a time. First Finn, then mom, dad and lastly Reese.​

I can also get my first scan of the child tomorrow which is exciting but that also means that I need to tell someone about it because I know they won't let me go alone. I can't tell Finn well because he cares too much so he'll end up telling mom and dad. I'm scared to ask my mom or dad because well they always been very fond of protected sex and Reese well there isn't muc-​

"Billie!!!!!" They all yell obviously getting my attention.​

"Umm yeah wassup" I tried to hide over the fact that I wasn't listening.​

No one's says anything they just sit there mouths ajar and wide eyed. I'm really confused like wh-​

"Your pregnant?"​

"I umm I need some air" I leave walking down the corridor and I hear the door shut from behind me telling me someone is probably following me to lecture me on how irresponsible I am.​

I find a fire exit door and open it sitting on the step of the back of the building putting my head in my hands. The person doesn't say anything they just sit next to me putting their arms around me comfortingly.​

As i pull my hands down i immediately knew it was Reese by the shoes. "It's going to be okay Bil. We can get through this" she comforted. Every time I'm upset she always knows what time say and when to say it. Whether I need to know the hard truth or be comforted she's always able to tell.​

Wait WE? Like me and her?​

I try to say something. Anything but nothing comes out. I'm in too much shock.​

"I was thinking how green is a good colour what do you think"​

"I uh it's ok" I said sullenly not really understanding what was going on​

"You definitely look like the type of person to have pink as their favourite color"​

"Bitch please" I burst out while laughing​

"Okay then what colour would you say is the best then"​

"Yellow. Yellow is good"​

"Nah"​

"Yeah like the coat in bellyache bright bright yellow"​

"Does anyone know the whereabouts of billie she needs to start to get ready" a voice through the radio spoke.​

"Yea we'll be in now"​

I understand what she was doing distracting me. And offending me like do I really look like pink is my favourite colour?​

"Come on miss pop star you got to go and get ready for your show" she said standing up and holding her hand out for me to grab onto.​

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hold you like a hostage​
Like a hostage​

The music dies out and the cheers of the audience take its place. As people clap and yell and scream I can't help but smile. Like these are my babies and I need to protect them at all costs.​

"How are you doing" the cheering erupts again "that's good I hope you are all well. Before the next song I have a question for you guys. So before the show I accidentally- I mean something happened leading to Reese distracting me with a conversation. Before you say it's nothing bad DW. But anyway we were talking about what colour is a good colour. Reese thinks green and I said I don't know. Do you know what she said? THAT I LOOK LIKE SOMEONE WHO LIKES PINK. TF do I look like that. If I do I'll have to change up my shit because damnnn" I look to side of the stage laughing to see Reese smiling shaking her head.​

"Anyway let's carry on with this bitch"