why do i project so hard? Rouxls doesn't derserve ANY of it. i have father issues? his died years ago. im afraid of getting assaulted? he got assaulted for 7 years. im afraid of never being an older sibling? he had to parent all of his younger siblings in fear. Queen doesn't either. my mom doesn't think too much about my dad's behavior? Queen doesn't bat a eye when Rouxls starts doing bad things. Im a people pleaser? She is too. Afraid of never being good enough for my family? I guess she is too. I guess the true reason i lime Daisuke so much is because he reflects me like a fucking mirror. Rouxls and Queen were not mirrors from the start, so i broke and beat them down into mirrors. i know i do this as an escape, the reasons i daydream all day is because i dont like thinking about my true issues. why? why? WHY? why cant it be normal why cant i be small again when I'd wait everyday for my dad to get home, only for now for me to barley acknowledge it? wait for him to get home, usually with a small shop-kin toy. what id give now for one fucking shopkin, one more day where i could wait and be happy my daddy to get home, for me to rush into his arms, screaming.
why cant i stop crying? is there something wrong with me? why do i wanna bite my tongue, scratch my arms, scream until my voice goes hoarse.
i want a shopkin. can someone get me one from walmart, like how mom promised he would be getting me one today?
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Randomthis is my vent book. should not be updated to often thankfully. have a nice day if you are reading this :) (cover is temporary until I draw one :P )
