February 15, 2013.
Dear J,
it's been a month since I last wrote to you.
I'm starting to think that you don't want anything to do with me.
I guess it's true.
who would want to, right? after all I've done.
it's really hard to forgive someone; someone like me.
but again, I'm sorry.
I hurt you in the worst way possible.
I suck. I know.
J, I miss you so much.
I miss what we had.
I miss us.
why is this happening to me?
I'm super depressed.
I can't hold it in anymore.
I can't take this pain inside.
I'm really hurt; and I know you are, too.
but please, don't let this ruin what we had.
we can start over again.
and I assure you.
I'll change.
I won't be who I am right now.
I won't break your trust in me.
I will always show you that I care.
I'm not who I am without you.
J, I miss you so much.
I was never the same when you left.
days, nights..... passed.
yet my feelings never changed.
you're still the one I think about every second of every minute of every hour of every day. call me cheesy; it's true.
I let out everything in my previous letter; but I'll just write my heart out.
I attempted to piece it together.
I will never stop trying to make you happy.
people break promises over something temporary.
maybe, fate had different plans for us? no. I don't want that.
time with you is never wasted, J.
through anything, I'll stay with you.
this hurts me more than I expected.
hope you know how I feel.
I wish you would miss me.
the same way I miss you.
we should be strong when things fall apart.
don't let go just yet, J.
this isn't goodbye.
loving you always,
S
