| Agastya |
"Agastya I am sorry." Vidyut utters, breaking through the usual silence at my house.
He's here to see how am I doing and I am pretty fine.
Quite a time I spoke some truth!
It's not like I have been a great liar, as she preasuumed but I am good at it when it comes to myself. Hehe.
"Two years have passed but you don't move on." I offer him a smile through the mirror, I'm looking at, to get the tie done.
The excitement for tonight is touching the ceiling. I am excited to finally meet her, see her, stare at her from the corner of the room. It's one rare time, when after seeing my name on the guest list of a party, she hasn't changed her plans to come and maybe I can call it progress?
So, I want to make the most out of it.
"I never intended to do that." He's apologetic, yet again.
"Do what? Break what was always broken?" I questioned with a lethargic energy because I am tired of him asking for an apology.
She has moved on, I have moved on, so he should too.
"But you love her. Don't you?" For once I feel, he said something, I have not heard from a long time. To keep my heart in control, I have kept myself away from this.
Vidyut's stare feels like a see through ray which can scan my heart and soul. And Agastya Raichand is not so bare, so vulnerable, so he turns back with a smirk.
"I do. But she hates me Vidyut! Honestly it doesn't matter how the truth came out. Her reaction to it would have been the same." I reply genuinely and try to ease down the guilt he pressurizes himself with.
"It wasn't like that. She loved you. Maybe she would-"
"-Maybe. Maybe! Maybe." I chuckle as I repeat.
"From last two years, we are just assuming, and now I think we should just stop. Lavanya's love for me, hasn't won over her hate for me and that's okay. I understand. But Vidyut, you should understand this too, that you can't help us. No one can help us." My smile eventually dropped as I said this.
"You don't deserve this heartbreak Agastya." Vidyut says, holding me by shoulder.
I DESERVE IT! To be honest to myself, I do deserve it.
But I am okay. I don't need pity. I hate it. She also pitied me enough to call it love and I'm sure it was pity. Because did her love won over her hate? No!
(Attachment issues kicked in again.)
I don't blame her, not at all but I have come to believe that no one can fall for a man like me. A screwed and pathetic man!
"She surely deserves an apology from my side." I smile again. It's true, I genuinely want to apologise.
"I know you will make up with her." Vidyut corrects my collar like a good potential wife and with this gesture I think I should marry him.
My humor has broke. But it's better than self pity.
"Come back to office." I say seriously this time. It's been two years since Vidyut left Highlights for the sake of repentance but I don't think he needed to do it ever.
"I can't -" his voice is breaking.
He still remembers what transpired years ago, maybe more clearly than I do and it eats him up.
"Vidyut have you seen Agastya? Is he here? He's not picking up my calls." She enquired with Vidyut in the office.
The next day of my fight with Aditya, Lavanya was extremely guilt ridden, asking for me. She wanted to mend things and when I got to know this, I fell in love with her all over again. No amount of effort can fix what I have screwed so badly. I did wrong to that one woman who loved me above her ego.
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The Blurred Lines
Romance"Oh Love! You are finally here. And I" he took a pause and roared with a sly smile "am NOT AT ALL pleased." He looked at me, as if I am his prey. Well he's a beast nonetheless. "Stop calling me Lav. It's Lavanya for you." I replied, with fierceness...
