Ang Crush Kong Bakla

Epilouge

for the past 13 years. andaming nangyari. 10 taon akong nagtago, 10 taon kong ibinaon yung mga sakit na naramdaman ko.

When I was in high school. I wanted to be perfect. Perfect daughter, perfect student, perfect sa paningin ng tao. Pero hindi pala, i-ju judge ka parin ng tao. Mamaliitin ka parin. iku kumpara ka sa iba. Ipapahiya, sisiraan. But one guy made me feel perfect, it was Mark.

He made me laugh when I cry, smile when I frown. Pag galit ako, sinusuyo niya ako, pag meron ako, pinupuntahan niya ako sa bahay. binibilhan ng chocolates, ice cream, at saka magmo movie marathon kami.

Pag takot ako, yinayakap niya ako. Pag di ko na kaya, tinutulungan niya ako.

I was so happy na nanjan siya lagi para sakin.

Pero everything changed nung time na nagsilabasan ng feelings. Nung nasira ung friendship namin.

nung FO na. Friendship Over.

Naskatan ako masyado to the point na 10 years na lumipas na nun hindi parin ako naka move on. Na bitter parin ako.

3 years na simula nung naging kami. Anniversary nga namin ngayon eh.

"Hi baby." I kissed his cheek.

"Hey" He smiled. I was expecting na, "Hey baby, happy anniversary."

Kagaya ng mga nangyari dati pero wala.

"Is everything okay?" Tanong niya. I just nodded and smiled. Pero deep inside, nagtatampo ako.

"Wala ka bang naalala ngayon?" tanong ko,

"Wala naman, hindi mo naman birthday, ah! Birthday ni Shakira! Lika puntahan natin!" I didn't know na birthday ni- wait? So mas naalala niya pa yun kesa sa anniversary namin? The fck?

"Pumunta ka mag-isa mo!" I said and stormed off. Bwisit.

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"Anak, halika may puntahan tayo. OMG Samahan mo ako dali!"

"Tinatamad ako mom." Sabi ko.

"Sige na kasi. Ito isuot mo." She gave a red cute short dress. After fixing myself. Sumunod ako kay mom.

Dinala niya ako sa isang garden. Ang ganda lalo't madilim na. Ang daming mga ilaw. ang ganda.

Nagulat nalang ako nung biglang nawala si mommy. I waited for 10 mins kasi baka bumalik siya pero  may lumapit na bata sakin.

"Ate oh," abot niya sakin ng rosas na may pink na papel sabay turo dun sa may papunta pa sa gitna ng garden.

Pagkalingon ko, wala na siya.

So sinundan ko lahat ng pink paper na nakakalat sa daan. Or should I say nakalinya nagtuturo papunta nowhere.

Np: Night Changes

Going out tonight
Changes into something red
Her mother doesn't like that kind of dress
Everything she never had she's showing off

Driving too fast
Moon is breaking through her hair
She said it was something that she won't forget
Having no regrets is all that she really wants

Then biglang nagsilabasan yung mga batchmates ko, friends, my parents and Mark's parents.

May mga hawak silang rosas.

We're only getting older baby
And I've been thinking about it lately
Does it ever drive you crazy
Just how fast the night changes?
Everything that you've ever dreamed of
Disappearing when you wake up
But there's nothing to be afraid of
Even when the night changes
It will never change me and you

Then may ilinabas silang parang whiteboard na nakalagay mga picture namin ni Mark simula pagkabata.

Chasing it tonight,
Doubts are running 'round her head
He's waiting, hides behind a cigarette
Heart is beating loud, she doesn't want it to stop

Moving too fast
Moon is lighting up her skin
She's falling, doesn't even know it yet
Having no regrets is all that she really wants

Lumabas naman si Mark. So siya pala yung kumakanta. Saka lumapit sakin.

We're only getting older baby
And I've been thinking about it lately
Does it ever drive you crazy
Just how fast the night changes?
Everything that you've ever dreamed of
Disappearing when you wake up
But there's nothing to be afraid of
Even when the night changes
It will never change me and you

Going out tonight
Changes into something red
Her mother doesn't like that kind of dress
Reminds her of a missing piece of innocence she lost

We're only getting older baby
And I've been thinking about it lately
Does it ever drive you crazy
Just how fast the night changes?
Everything that you've ever dreamed of
Disappearing when you wake up
But there's nothing to be afraid of
Even when the night changes
It will never change, baby
It will never change, baby
It will never change me and you

"Shan Elena Marquez, will you be my queen?"

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THE END :)