Phobia

Bonus - Failure

This isn't really a part of the collection. With some time left before my next story gets published, I thought that I would post this to make the wait better. In India, with so many exam results revealed, some of you may be going through a rough patch of depression and disappointment. I hope this helps and inspires you.

You say that I'm pretending

And that I have it so good

How dare I feel this much?

And I wonder

Have you ever seen the world through my eyes?

Did you see the grey exterior?

And the endless floods

The weight on my shoulders

And everyone's expectations?

Honey, when I return to the world,

I'm returning as a failure

And the one thing I had going for me has disappeared,

And now I've become truly... average.

And everybody around me has something

But here I'm left with nothing.

And yet you see my exterior,

And see fit to judge my interior.

Now I have sunk to the bottom

But the only way left is up

So I will climb the peaks

And even if I fall down,

I will rise back from the dead

And when I'm on the top

And see the sky in colour

I won't forget the greys

I'll never forget the haze

And I will get there

So when they talk about me

They'll finally say,

"It's her, so I can't say I'm surprised; I knew she would do it."

And no one would say sweet lies to console me

They would laude me in genuine awe,

I will be an equal among them.

So armed with this knowledge,

When I walk into the world tomorrow,

I will raise my head high; no tears in sight

Because I am a failure

For now.