I feel like it's my fault. Sometimes I feel like I shouldn't say things but I end up saying them like an idiot. When I was talking to my gf she was being all lovely and sweet while I'm watching porn. Ew. Porn. Ugh. Nvm that. But I told her that I was watching porn and she said "I'm trying to be sweet and lovely and you're watching porn." That just made me think that she was upset at me and I started crying. I just thought to myself "wow. I ruin everything like an idiot. I'm just a horny bitch. She deserves someone better" and stuff like that. Sometimes I wish I wasn't like this. I'm so disgusting and a disappointment. She should have to deal with this. Ugh. It's all so fucking stupid. I'm just a hypersexual crybaby that can't do anything right.
Started: 9:40 PM
Ended: 9:49 PM
