You make me feel special

Chapter 13

I tried to reach for him, but he couldn't be found. But I felt him telling me he was here. He was by my side.

"Answer me please." I plead. "I can't see anything Aiden."

"I'm here." Aiden said soothingly.

I felt his arms wrap around me and my body melted into his. I needed him. My mind, body and soul called to his. I wanted to be one with him. Hear his voice in my head. But I didn't know if I could. I didn't know if I was ready.

"I'm scared Aiden." I whisper.

"I know you are." Aiden said calmly as he kissed my forehead. "But I'm here for you. I won't let anyone hurt you."

"What's happening to me?" I ask.

"I don't know my love." Aiden said sadly. "But whatever it is. We'll get through it together."

I closed my eyes knowing it wouldn't make a difference. Aiden laid me back down onto the bed. He kept his arms wrapped around me. It almost felt like I had envisioned it. It felt like a dream. Like a dream.

Darkness around me. Words fill my mind. Your pain and mine. Joined together. My solider. Mine. Why must you die? Why must you leave me here alone? Is it my fault? Did I fight too hard? Did I let him get to close? Why are you jealous? Why are you sad? You are mine. Yet here I lay dead. My body left to burn away. My fire killing my soul. Killing my body. I feel so far away. Why must I die? Why did I let myself burn? Why did my fire burn my body? It doesn't make sense. But I feel the dark consume me. This familiar feeling. Of death. It's consuming me. His light carrying on with me. Why didn't I appreciate all I had. I felt you do it. I wanted an army. An army to kill. But I fell away. Broke apart. The moment mine died. I lost myself. Thank you for reuniting me. For all is not lost. But I fear for the worse. Danger is coming. You'll handle just right. But death is dawning against us again. But this time we can't die.

My mind was slipping. Falling. I felt myself spiralling. Like nothing was real. Like nothing was right. But nothing was wrong. Hot flushes in my skin. My fire burns bright. Sliver speckles of my wings surround my every view. Flames consume my soul. But rebirth my soul. Made me the same. But I'm different all the same. I might not be her. But I am close. I might not enjoy death. But I still kill. I will still kill. I will fight until my last breath. They will live. Like a fiery inferno. I was born again. My life won't end in death this time. For I am meant to stay. I'm an Angel. I have a group. Not that it matters anyway. For I must wake. I must see. Danger is close. Close to me. Come get me general. I'm ready. I will burn your soul into millions of pieces. So that you could never harm anyone else. I'll do it for the right reasons. But I won't be the one killing you. Not this time. Someone else needs to do it more. And I'll let him. For you have tortured his soul. Tortured his mind. Let him release himself from your hold. His soul and mine are all but old. Bring back his soul to his rightful place. Next to mine.

"Azrael." I whispered under my breath still half asleep.

I felt someone pushing my body. I didn't think much of it. But it kept happening. I knew they wanted me awake. I thought it would be another dream. But the dreams are over. No more past for I must focus on this life. My life.

"What." I finally said sleepily.

"Get up." A stern voice said.

"Leave me alone." I said rolling over into Aiden's arms.

Aiden started stroking my hair. I felt my body calm. The white glow of light swept through my bones. I felt the mix of fire, dark and light. I felt at ease. Like my body has finally accepted what we are. Who we are.

"Wake up." The voice said as they touch my shoulder harshly.

"Let me sleep." I say as I tried to bury my head deeper into Aiden's chest.